Jamie,
I know all the feelings you are having now. I had open VBG on Sept. 29. It was the best thing I have ever done. The ng tube was in for 4 days. That is the worst part of the whole surgery. It was well worth it. I have lost 75 pounds. I think it is the best thing you can do for yourself. Please feel free to e-mail me if you have any questions. God Bless