Question:
I find myself thinking more and more
I just found out my date is 1/8/02 and I have never been so scared about dying in my life, is this normal?? — Wendi B. (posted on November 22, 2001)
November 21, 2001
Read my profile, I was actually shocked to wake up in recovery, I was that
certain I was going to die in surgery! Dont fear WLS, EMBRACE IT! Your
lucky to be getting a NEW HEALTHIER LIFE! Happy thanksgiving, and just
think soon yoo too will have something new to be thankful for, feeling
wonderful and looking great!
— bob-haller
November 21, 2001
Hey look at my profile as well, I was so scared. I prayed for peace and
the Lord gave it to me. Although I have to admit, I was so nervous the
morning of my surgery the check in nurse told another nurse and they gave
me a shot to relax me. My leg was just a shaking. I said another prayer
to the lord and by the time that shot kicked in, I could have cared
less...good stuff lol! You pray and I'll pray for you and you are going to
feel so silly for doubting when you wake up on the other side on your way
to a better you.
— Charlotte G.
November 22, 2001
Dear Wendy, I wasn't so much terrified of dying in the weeks before my
surgery, I did however think about it and leaving my family behind and then
I just brushed it off. As I'm walking to my pre-op room, I started
thinking of death, and leaving my 4-year-old daughter alone with no mother
and then I got scared. I started crying while walking down the hall. I
started telling my mom I wanted to leave and forget about the surgery
because I was going to die. She didn't let me feel Ok about leaving, so I
ended up staying and crying and convinced I was going to die. I told my
mom to sell my new car and put it away for my daughters college
education...I mean I KNEW I was going to die. I cried all the way to the
operating room until they gave me the "happy" shot and then I
didn't care anymore. Like Bill I was shocked, relieved, estatic to wake up
in recovery. What a relief. Through the bad times I wished I had died at
some times, but now I'm so glad that I did this. The fear of death pre-op
is very very real; but as a post-op you know that you chose your surgeon
because he was competent, medical facilities and lifesaving techniques are
at they're best and there are surgeries that are 100x's more complicated
happening every day and very few of them are dying. It's ok to be scared,
you'll be fine and as a post-op you'll wonder what you were so scared of
because you did so wonderfully.
Good Luck to you!~
— Kristin R.
November 22, 2001
Hi Wendi,
When I first got approved I was elated!! but then the thoughts of death
crept in... Someone on this site gave me these thoughts: There is a FAR
GREATER chance of dying from being Morbidly Obese than on the operating
table. That's something to think about, you'll be around alot longer. I
have surgery on 12/12 and just today I thot' what if I have to leave my
kids behind? Well there's only one person in control and it ain't us !!!
Other things that have help me when I fear is looking at the before/after
photos for inspiration. God Bless you.
— Cindee A.
November 23, 2001
I was planning my own funeral in the days before surgery but my rational
side reminded me that I would die sooner than later without the surgery. I
also reminded myself of the misery of living in that huge body as well as
the trust I had in my surgeon who I had VERY carefully selected. When you
wake up from surgery, you will so be SO proud of yourself and KNOW that
this year will be the year YOU took charge and took care of yourself!!
— Lisa B.
November 24, 2001
My date is 1/3/02. I know what you mean! A while back I got my first
round of jitters. I was terrified that I would leave my 4 kids motherless!
I was absolutely, truly terrified. Seeing my doctor helped. He viewed
the surgery as so routine, that it relaxed me a lot. However, now I'm
starting to get nervous again. I'm trying really hard to keep busy -
Thanksgiving, Christmas shopping, remodeling house, etc. I'm not backing
out of the surgery, so I'm trying to keep distracted instead.
— Kathy J.
November 22, 2002
Yeah dying to get this done, and behind me.lol. No I know what you mean.
Yes I have dreams, bad thoughs, etc and with no one behind me for support,
it is hard. But after learning about this WLS .Theres no turning back. I
really will feel depressed, even worst than before learning about it. This
is one thing I have to do for me. Yes I went through how abouts. But I
think positive. I go to church. anyhow and I do learn about GOD. and life
and death. I'm ok with all this worry. Put all your worries in God hand.
Besides no one can hide away from death. It will happen anytime, anyplace.
Go ahead live alittle for you. and forget about HOW ABOUTS. Hugs
— Naes Wls J.
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