Question:
has anyone gone through severe depression 7 months out and would like to share?
hi. After surgery i made the mistake of going off my anti depressants b/c i felt great losing and my whole life i've been battling this and for once i started to feel "normal". now i am in really bad shape. i don't want to leave my house, i am missing class and i am so embarassed, i don't know what to do. the good thing is that i have started back on my two anti depressant zoloft and wellbrutin and been taking clonopin to help with the sadness(basically just sleeping it away). i am so ruining everything and i am in a big hole. i have meeting with the university psych next week. why did i do this? i knew this would happen. why was i so stupid? i guess i had to vent thanks — Jennifer S. (posted on February 28, 2003)
February 27, 2003
All I can say is that I also am on meds for depression and anxiety and
often don't want to take them. After even 2 or 3 days without them I fall
into the depths of despair. You just have to decide which life you want:
depressed or happy. Then do what you need to do (take the meds)
CONSISTENTLY) to achieve that. Maybe I'll heed my own advice here!
— M. B.
February 27, 2003
Hi, You are certainly not alone. I did exactly the same thing. I am now
back on meds and feeling like myself again. Don't beat yourself up, just
get on your regular cycle of meds and go from there. I am also 7 months
out. If you need an email buddy I'm available. Good luck to you. I try
to think positive, I had this surgery for myself and now I need to take
care of other parts of my "self". Love yourself, and tell
yourself everyday you are worth it, because you are. Penny :-) 7/31/02
5'3" 245/171/?
— pcollin4
February 28, 2003
Jennifer- Try not to get to upset with yourself over this because most of
us have done the same thing; but, DO make sure that you don't continue this
pattern indefinately. I can't tell you how many times I have felt that I
was better and didn't need my medication anymore only to be in the depths
of despair a week later. I think for some reason that some people who
suffer from depression find themselves in a self-destructive pattern,
although I think maybe subconciously, because for many years being
depressed and miserable is all they've known. I think that has been the
case for me anyway. After the last time I did this to myself I had to ask
the same question that the earlier post suggested and that is "Do I
want to be happy or depressed"? Trust me I choose Happy and it sounds
like you do too. I'm glad to hear you are back on your meds and if you can
afford it try to see a counselor once a week because I know that my
therapist will hold me accountable. She ALWAYS knows if I haven't taken my
meds and doesn't let me off the hook for it either. LOL. If you are only
seeing a psychiatrist for med control once a month or even two months than
a lot can happen in that time. I know I would feel ashamed because I
hadn't taken my meds in three weeks and would cancel my appt. until I got
back on track but would go months without because I was too depressed to do
the right thing for myself. I just wanted you to know that you are not
alone. Good luck. Feel free to e-mail me if you need to talk! Take care.
— denisel
February 28, 2003
Jennifer, you're not alone. I was forced to be taken off anti-depressants
that I had ben on for over 6 years. I had ulcer surgery/ repair a hole in
my stomach- and I was on alot of meds, and they didn't think my stomach can
handle it. It's been two months and I am up and down constantly, will
probably return to my medication soon. It's getting better though, but I do
agree with the previous posters, stay consistently on your anti-dep. I
know when I am off them for a few days, there is a noticeable difference,
and I just am so emotional I want to cry all the time. Plus, we have gone
through a major surgery, and our bodies are constantly changing, so we have
issues we haev to deal with. But the previous poster said something about
you have to let yourself be happy, I cannot remember exactly, but I fully
agree. A year ago, I just told myself that I can either look at things
negatively or positively. "You're only as happy as you choose to
be." And I am happy for the most part, despite some illnesses. I
figure life is too short to be upset, and I kind of just forced myself to
look at the brighter side of things. I know it's harder than it sounds, and
it took me time to do it, but I eventually did! You're doing the right
thing by going back on your meds and talking with a professional- I think
that will help you alot. Goodluck to you, wish you all the best!
— Lezlie Y.
February 28, 2003
I have suffered with depression since I collapsed at work in 1989. I fought
this long hard battle, and have found my #1 perscription I take daily is:
Prayer, God's Word, and time with Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, then,
"His peace,which surpasses all understanding, will guide your heart
and mind in Christ Jesus". I also will not go without my "LIGHT
BOX"! I use it everyday to maintain good mental health and lift me
from the "blahs" of the dreary Ohio winter wheather! I know it
has been a God send for me, and it could help you too! If your interested
in this write me @ [email protected], however, I am having surgery on
03-03-03, so I won't be able to answer after then, until I get home around
the 7th. I will remember you in prayer. Sincerely, Linda Carpenter
— Linda C.
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