HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA'S!

first of all, Happy Mother's Day to all you amazing and hot mama's out there! a day strictly based to appreciate being a mom, having a mom, having a child...

things I am not and a child I dont have. :/

sorry, I'm having a pity party. a day that should be amazing time spent with my mom, instead I wanna stay in bed.

I see so many women who have waaaaaaaay more than enough children.... like 8 kids at 24 and pregnant again kind of thing. like it is their life mission to have 50 kids at 50 years old. and I wasn't joking about 8 kids at 24. my friend is pregnant with her 9th child.

then I see women who have only 1 kid but neglect that kid... seriously? who said you should be a mother when you would rather be on crack?

then I see women who don't have the child they are pregnant with and choose to abort it.. total heartbreak when people like me who only get to dream of having a child. I knew I was born to be a mom. and most days I can hide my depression pretty well.. but today... when there's a holiday created for mothers... all I want to do is tell my mom I love her and die. grief of not being a mom is to hard to handle today. and to make it worse, this childless depression put me in a weight rut. I'm stuck at 290 since last week leading up to mother's day and I just can't get out of it. once today passes I'm sure I'll get back on track and be able to hide my emotions again, but for today, I'm drowning.

I'm sorry that your so down ,   I just always get down too. My cousin is like my sister and she wants to be a mom and I feel she deserves to be a mom, but she hasn't had a child and we don't know if she can. I love her so much and I know its very very hard for her as well yet I never know what to say  I just pray for her all the time. I really hope you get to feeling a lot better. I hope that this message doesn't urk you. I wanted to express some feelings as well. 

You didn't irk me at all. It's nice to know people know how I feel on here. hope your cousin gets her chance soon too!

(((hugs))) hon, forgive me for getting personal. Are you able to have children and haven't found the partner you are looking for or are you dealing with infertility? Both are tough situations.

I have kids, I'm just very close to her and I get a little down for her.

I was asking that question of Rayah. I can understand empathizing with a friend.t

It's not personal at all! I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 16 but was told if I remove it, I would be able to have kids. Removed it, no luck. I knew my weight had alot to do with it too so I had surgery this past January to help with that so I have to wait the 18 months to try. I'm 25 and my husband and I have been trying since 19. I always knew I was supposed to be a mom. I was young when we started trying but I knew I was ready. I'm still ready. It's just alittle bit more of a struggle getting by when EVERYONE around me is holding a baby, or about to have a baby or talking about it knowing they will have one alot sooner than I will. Just disheartening. Everyone keeps telling me don't do the surgery for any other reason than to just get healthy. I nod but I did it for more than just that. I don't want to have to tell my husband that I can't do the one thing Women can, Have a child.

Aw, I'm sorry. I do think people are offbase in telling you you shouldn't have had surgery to improve your PCOS. Fertility and health are linked, and having a child is cleary important to you. I hear you that it is hard when you want a child and it seems like everyone in the world has one but you. I will swing a chicken for you than when your 18 months are up, you and your husband will be blessed with as many healthy children as you want.

Thank you RosyKate!

but could you do me a huge favor and swing 100 chickens? lol!

HAPPY MONDAY!