Wow... 7 1/2 months out and I am almost at my goal weight!
Apr 01, 2009
Never ever thought I would be below 200 again. I am right at 201. I have 21 pounds to go til I am at my goal weight. I am so happy and proud. My life has changed so much and all of it for the better. Physically of course I feel better but the emotional part of it is the best. I have much more self confidence and I actually look forward to my future. My husband and I are in the middle of a reconciliation. My boys are growing like little weeds and being able to run and chase them is a feeling that can't be described. My husband and I took them to the beach a couple of weeks ago. I was able to walk through the sand without getting out of breath or stopping til we got to the water. It was an awesome feeling. Not being stared at like I was a beached whale was nice too. Life for me has definitely changed and I thank my doctor and God above for giving me a new life. One that I honestly feel alive in... not just surviving from day to day.
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Wow~What a rollercoaster this two months has been!
Oct 28, 2008
Wow~ My life is finally turning around for the better! I am more active than I ever thought I would be. The weight is coming off. It feels so good to actually be told how great I look rather than how pretty my face is or how beautiful I will be when I lose the weight. UGH! I still want to lose about 65 more pounds but the difference is... I now believe I can do it. My self confidence has been boosted and my self esteem is higher than it has ever been. I love this new energy and feeling I have. I'm not just surviving anymore. I am living!
~10 DAYS OUT AND COUNTING~
Aug 31, 2008
Well I missed my protein yesterday... kept up with the fluids but didn't have the isopur and I didn't make it to the vitamin store so I missed it. Definitely started it again today. I can definitely tell the difference in how much water I can drink when I don't take the protein compared to when I do. I am back to measuring my cups of water every half hour.... but I gotta tell ya sometimes I feel like I could down the whole bottle and then some lol. I am not so hungry today and I even cooked for the boys tonight... one had pizza and the other sloppy joes... and I didn't even have the urge to eat... pretty good huh? I cleaned up folded some clothes so i am trying to get up and get moving when I can. It's just too darn hot to walk outside... but thats okay... I found my walking video this evening... gonna start it tomorrow. I am really looking forward to getting on that scale let me tell ya. :)
9 days out now
Aug 30, 2008
and still feeling pretty good. I am trying to keep busy. The more physically active the better. Can't wait to go back to work. My doctor's appointment is Wednesday and Im asking to go back. Well I put some pictures up. I look at those pics and get sick to my stomach but I know with some work that will be a different story in the future. Lots to do today... cleaning, laundry and bill paying. Had planned on taking the boys to the waterpark but I'm afraid my surgical sites aren't healed well enough for that. I wanna keep moving but wanna keep safe too. Ohhhh and my bloodsugar this morning!!!! 102! Pretty good since they were in the high 130s and 140s huh? :) I thank God I had this surgery and for the chance to move on and be a mom to my boys!
I Made It!!!!!!!!!!!
Aug 26, 2008
I am home... I tried to do this last night but all of a sudden midway through my post it was gone! Poof! I figured it was God's way of telling me to take my excited recuperating butt to bed. Sooooo, here I am again. I got home last night. God its good to be here. I am going to tell my story about my surgery and I'm sorry if I sound like a little drama queen but this board is here to help us all make our informed decisions and since I know Im NOT the only one scared to do this I am gonna tell it like it is. I got up a little before 4am took my shower with the wonderful betadine. While I was in there I was praying and crying that God would see fit to allow me to make it through the surgery to most importantly be able to raise my beautiful little boys and see my grandchildren but I also want to feel what it is like to be "like everyone else" to fit in with society. When I got out of the shower and started getting dressed I started thinking... This could be the last time I see my children. As much as I tried to get it through my head that I was going to be fine I just had this uncontrollable thought I wasn't going to make it through surgery. I got my boys up got their shoes on it was pretty much time to go. Their dad took me to the hospital. As I pulled up I did my best not to cry. I didn't want to scare my kids. I did okay til I got out of the car and I hugged and kissed my 4 year old told him I loved him and then my soon to be 6 year old when I hugged him he squeezed me so tight. I told them both no matter what to remember that mommy would always be with them and love them with all my heart. I grabbed my bag and walked away from the car so they couldn't see me cry. I walked into the admissions area and was told to sit down and a nurse would be out. I felt like a fool as I sat there crying and trying to tell myself I was look back and laugh at this... I still don't laugh. I cry when I think about how terrified I was that I may have seen my kids for the last time. The nurse came out and took me back had me lay on a gurney and put some nice warm blankets on me then started my IV. While she was taking my blood sugar she mentioned that she herself had wls 7 years ago. I might add she looked awesome! That made me a little more comfortable, well it made me stop crying for a bit. Once the anesthesiologist came in and asked me what I was allergic to and told me he would do all he could to make sure none of it ended up in my IV the nurse wheeled me off to the operating room. The nice anesthesiologist took one look at me and said I'm going to give you something to relax. Tears running out of my eyes and all I don't think I remember them finishing strapping my arm down. I was gone. I don't remember anything until they woke me up telling me they were taking me to my room. I tried so hard to look around. My first thought was of my boys and how thankful I was to God for letting me make it through the surgery. I was taken back to my room where I got a hug from both of my precious boys and their dad took them home. That first day is pretty much of a blur but I do remember how nice everyone was to me. My doctor was the best. He came in to see me and explained that there was a little more work than he had expected (a hernia he repaired) but that I did excellent coming through the surgery. I hit the pain button alot the first day... after that I didn't use it hardly at all maybe 3 or 4 times for the rest of my stay. I walked and walked and walked some more. I am ready to use this tool that Dr. Rumsey gave me. I thank God for him and his knowledge. I am home and so ready to start the beginning of my new life. Would I do it again? In a heartbeat. It has saved my life. I am open to any questions anyone has. Have a wonderful day and thanks for reading my story!
Tomorrow is the day... I'm finally having surgery...
Aug 20, 2008
Well... after all this time and really feeling like this day would never come it is almost here. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life and I am so much looking forward to it. I thank God for this tool that is being given to me and I am going to work it to the very best of my ability. I can't wait to be able to run and play soccer with my boys, be able to visit my grand daughters and just enjoy life again.
Its Almost Here....
Aug 19, 2008
Wow!!! The day I never thought would come is going to be here tomorrow! I am so excited I can't sleep. I should be. I have a very busy day tomorrow. We are going to Seaworld and I have my pre op appointment. My mind is going sooooooo fast. I can't even really think. I went shopping today and bought a couple of new tops. It was so awesome to look at all the clothes and know that I will be able to buy clothes in the regular section someday soon. I know this is going to be work... but I'm willing to do what it takes to get this weight off. I wanna be healthy for my kids and be a mom they can be proud of.
3 more days
Aug 18, 2008
Actually not really even 3 days. I am soooo nervous. Terrified that something is going to happen to stop the surgery but even more terrified of something happening during the surgery. I am a basket case... sure glad they did that psych eval in the beginning and not now lol. I have worked overtime this past couple of weeks to keep my mind off of things and now Im off til surgery... well what the heck I can work here at home for free and get my house cleaned up. I just feel the need to keep busy if anyone knows what I mean.
10 days to go!!!
Aug 10, 2008
Ughhhhhhhhhh! I am excited and freaking out at the same time... How can this be? Not to mention really sabotaging myself. I have gained 4 pounds this week. I have got to kick myself in the butt and get going. I paced halls tonight at a pretty good rate getting my heart rate up there as well as the heat lol. It's pretty cool here no stoplights to worry about... didn't have to stop the whole 30 minutes I walked. Talking with one of my co-workers tonight I found out she has a couple of friends that have had the RNY. One who she said has had alot of problems with her gall bladder but is doing better now and the other that died during the surgery which has been my big fear. As I was walking I started thinking that I just need to put more effort into getting ready for this surgery. That is all there is to it. I'm going to make it. I am going to be one of the sucesses of this surgery. I won't have it any other way!
WOOO HOOOOOO! 15 days to go
Aug 06, 2008
After stressing all night long... I got the results back from my hemogobinA1C... It was 6.3 whichi is down from 8.0 a year ago. I am soooo happy. I went and got my gallbladder ultrasound this morning... Looks like I am a go now. All my labs seem to be okay cept for spilling protein in my urine... My doctor said it is probably the high protein diet. Life is wonderful... Now I can start packing! :) 15 days to go and counting down.
