MamaSwann
Is Bariatric Surgery just me being lazy
Dec 28, 2018
I could get back into exercise. We have a home gym now so I really dont have an excuse at all. I could count my calories and eat better. My back doesn't hurt anymore thanks to the pain block shots so I really could go back to cooking more.
We really shouldn't go out to lunch as it would save money better. And although I work from home and my work is sitting crocheting orders, I really could just put a schedule togther to exercise and cook instead of letting the crocheting rule my day.
So is this surgery just a cop out? Am I just being lazy. Exercising and eating better will take a long time. And I will have to stay motivated which is a stuggle because I get emotionally exhausted thinking for my husband and now our son is so depressed with anxiety that I have to be their cheerleaders.
I think I know what it is about this surgery. I just want it done so I can get my weight down to keep me healthy so I can continue to take care of my family. I am the spoke in the wheel like my mom was for our family growing up. Everyone relies on me to be here for them or think for them (my husband has a brain injury) and I will not give up on our son (eventhough he has). I guess thats it. I don't have time for this weight loss to take time and I'm emotionally too leak to keep myself from giving up.