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I really need to focus and stay on point with my blog here since I have so many goals Ive reached! First Im under 150 pounds now... SCORE! 

Secondly today I went shopping with one of my besties and we walked into Lane Bryants, mind you Ive been a faithful shopper there for years.

Howeve today I got dirty looks?! My bestie says whats wrong? I said omg the looks are awful! She says THATS CUZ YOUR THE SKINNY B*TCH! 

haha!! I am not about body shaming or making others feel bad but I have to admit this made me feel amazing. Then we went shopping at 

Victoria's Secret! I have NEVER shopped there because nothing fit and walla evverything fits, I actually cried as I bought pretty things. Heres to 

reaching my goal soon and never looking back <3

 2016 is my year! My 1st first of the year.... I was called skinny! I havent been called skinny in so very very long. I cried lol 

So the journey continues. Im still having a hard time accepting that Im smaller. So much so that I freak out 

about gaining anything back and reaching my goal which is only 30 pounds away! I feel better, Im told I look better

but when I look in the mirror I still see me, I still see the rest of the weight that needs to go. No Im not anorexic or 

bulimic but I am determined that I reach the goal I have set for myself and I hate to fail. The scary thing is, once I reach 

that goal Im wondering if it will be enough. 

Well as crazy as it sounds I hit two goals this week. 1 I am under 200 lbs WOOHOO! I havent been under 200 in .... a very long time! And 2nd , I can no 

longer shop in the plus size section! I actually have mixed feelings on this one in a bittersweet sort of way. I mean I have been shopping in 

this department for so long now, and it kinda defined who I was. NOW I am no longer in plus size clothes! Im thrilled :D more than any words 

can describe but I realize now, Im also on a journey to find the real me thats been hidden behind my size all these years. More to come.... 

I was reading some past articles today by a notes and published WLS leader when I read the following and I quote,

"In fact, most weight-loss surgery patients try to deflect attention away from their surgeries. Why? In large part because of the social stigma perpetuated by magazines like People but also because it seems futile to explain exactly how labor-intensive this process is. Imagine having to relearn to eat (much in the way an infant has to learn to eat), take on exercise, learn to follow a rigorous vitamin schedule and, perhaps most challenging, learn to cope with emotions that you’ve always placated with food. Imagine doing all that then having some magazine invalidate it by implication that your hard work was about on par with a gimmick." 

and I had an OMG moment when I realized thats me. I have been avoiding telling anyone what I did or about my journey because I didnt want them to judge me. Well you know what? To hell with that! Im proud of my choices! Every day Im even more proud when I stick to my diet, when the scale moves down, when my BMI drops, even when I learn a lesson from eating things that are wrong for me! FOR ME this has been the best decision I could have made and its been life altering! Every day is a new challenge and a new learning experience but the results are so worth it. I am finding me and discovering that for so long Ive been lost in emotional eating and weight. And I want to thank those at OH for all the love and support and for answering all my questions when Im searching or encouraging when Im down. :) 

Today I hit my latest goal, to weigh under 200 pounds. I hit the scale at 199 this morning. 

I should be ecstatic about this! I mean its been 25 years since Ive seen that weight. But other

things going on in life at the moment make this small victory a little shadowed. HOWEVER my 

next goal is to be 175 and I sure aint giving up yet! haha

Well it seems Im starting to get over the hump that is my most recent stall. Damn did this one take awhile! haha 

but Im thrilled to see the scale start to go down a bit again even if slowly. Ive pumped up the walking but Ive found 

that Im wanting to incorporate foods I shouldnt ie bread and crackers, potatoes ect... Need some good vibes sent my way folks!! :) 

One way or another Im going to win this battle of the blubber as I call it. 

On another note, ran into my first real issues since surgery, very low iron ( anemia ) needing infusions and also

did you realize if you eat refined sugar products ( like birthday cake ) it gives you an awful stomach issue for a couple days???? WONT 

BE DOING THAT AGAIN i tell ya! lol 

Ok so Im within 10 pounds of being under 200 now and hit a stall... what a bummer! So Im re-evaluating my diet and seeing if theres anything I can do to kickstart 

the weight loss again, im only 65 pounds from goal and I know I can do this! I GOT THIS :)

Im only 15 pounds away from my next major goal of being under 200 lbs. I cant remember the last time I weighed less than 200 and I think this milestone will 

be a huge one for me. This journey is amazing and Im learning so much but its by no means easy. I am learning more and more everyday about how important diet

and exercise in your life to stay healthy.  :)

Yep, its finally happened again, Im at my second plateau and although a little sad, I cant really complain because Ive still lost so much ( an entire person! ) and my goal is within sight so I wont be discouraged or give up :) I will merely see this through, and do my best to stick with my diet and exercise. Only 75 lbs to go!