cheryl_jagow
3-27-09
I AM CURRENTLY 3 YEARS POST-OP. I STARTED WEGHING 296 LBS WEARING A SIZE 22/24.
I CURRENTLY WEIGH 165 LBS AND WEARING SIZE 10. I FEEL WONDERFUL. IM SO HAPPY I GOT THIS SURGERY DONE. IT HAS TURNED MY LIFE AROUND!
11/2/05
I AM A 25 YEAR OLD SINGLE MOTHER. IN GREENBRIER SECTION OF CHESAPEAKE. MY SON IS 4 YEARS OLD, HE IS MY PRIDE AND JOY. I LOVE HIM TO DEATH!!! I HAVE ALREADY HAVE GONE THROUGH MY SEMINAR. IT WAS VERY INTERESTING. I HAVE MY FIRST CONSULTATION APPOINTMENT ON 12-2-05. I AM SO READY TO GET THIS DONE. I WENT FOR MY PAP YESTERDAY AND THE DR STATED I HAVE A HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE. MY BACK HAS BEEN HURTING FOR ABOUT A WEEK NOW. I GET THESE BACK SPASMS. I AM SURE THIS IS ALL RELATED TO MY GIRLISH FIGURE OF 296 LBS. THE HIGHEST I HAVE EVER!!!!!! BEEN IN MY LIFE. I HAVE BEEN BIG MOST OF MY LIFE, AND I AM ONLY 25. I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE IT UNTIL 50 YEARS OLD. BUT THE WAY I HAVE BEEN PUTTING MY WEIGHT ON I DON’T KNOW.
I HAVE A 4 YEAR OLD SON. AND MY WEIGHT RESTRICTS ME FROM DOING THINGS WITH HIM. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO LIVE, BREATH, RUN, TAKE MY SON TO THE BEACH, BUSH GARDENS, ETC… IM SO READY!
I HAVE TRIED A MAJORITY OF THE DIETS OUT THERE. OF COURSE I FEEL LIKE IM THE YO-YO DIETER EXPERT HERE. IM WAITING FOR MY SURGERY DATE. I HEARD THAT THERE ARE A LOT OF APPOINTMENTS TO GO THROUGH UNTIL YOU GET THE SURGERY DONE. I HOPE THE TIME WILL PASS QUICK.
WELL MORE LATER.
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I WENT TO MY CONSULTATION APPOINTMENT TODAY, WITH DR SPENCER. HE IS VERY NICE, BUT TALKED VERY FAST. HE WAS KIND OF HARD TO UNDERSTAND. BUT SINCE I HAVE DONE MY RESEARCH I KNEW WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT. WELL MY SURGERY DATE IS SET FOR 2-22-06. JUST 13 SHORT WEEKS AND I WILL HAVE A NEW BIRTHDAY! IM SO EXCITED AND I CANT BELIEVE ITS IN FEB. I WAS EXPECTING MARCH OR APRIL. SO I AM VERY HAPPY.
THEY DID THE STOMACH ULCER TEST RIGHT IN THE OFFICE. SO I DON’T HAVE TO TAKE TIME OFF WORK TO DO THAT. AND I HAVE TO CALL ON THE PHONE TO GET DATES TO GO SEE SOME OTHER PEOPLE AND I WILL BE SET. I DON’T HAVE TO DO ANY PRE SCREENING OR EXTRA STUFF LIKE TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT BEFORE SURGERY. SO THAT’S GREAT. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS SAD BUT ITS TRUE! I CAN GO EAT ALL THE BAD STUFF I CAN BECAUSE COME FEB 22 I WONT BE ABLE TO! AND I WON’T EVER AGAIN. I AM WILLING TO SAY BYE BYE TO ALL THE BAD FOODS.
I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT HOLIDAY.
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12/3/05
I WENT TO MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH MY SURGEON AND I AM SCHEDULED FOR SURGERY 2-22-05, SO TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY BACK SINCE THE FIRST DR APPOINTMENT. SO I HAD TO GET UP ENOUGH NERVE TO "INFORM" MY SUPERVISOR OF ME HAVING TO BE OUT OF WORK FOR 3-4 WEEKS. SHE TOOK IT WELL. BETTER THAN I HAD EXPECTED. I HAVE a 6 PERSON UNIT AND NOW THERE ARE ONLY 5 SO WE HAVE A POSITION OPEN. WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO 2-22-05 WE WILL BE DOWN 2 MORE PEOPLE. I JUST HOPE AND PRAY TO GOD THAT THEY WILL STILL LET ME TAKE THE TIME OFF WORK TO GET THIS SURGERY DONE. AND NOT TELL ME I HAVE TO CHANGE MY DATE BECAUSE OF US BEING SHORT HANDED!
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12-15-05
I CALLED BACK MY SURGEONS OFFICE TO SEE IF MY PAP RESULTS WERE FAXED IN, OF COURSE MY OBGYN HAS NOT FAXED THEM. I ASKED THE SURGEONS OFFICE IF MY SURGERY WAS APPROVED. AND IT IS. THANK GOD!!!!! I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO BE APPROVED BUT JUST TO HEAR THAT YES YOU ARE APPROVED, IS WONDERFUL. FEBRUARY 22ND SEEMS ALL TO CLOSE. IM AM SO EXCITED BUT I AM NERVOUS AT THE SAME TIME. I HAVE BEEN ON THIS OH BOARD ALMOST EVERYDAY READING PROFILES AND MESSAGES THEY HAVE LEFT. I AM LEARNING MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY. I HAVE TO GET A DIFFERENT PICTURE OF ME UP HERE I DONT LJKE THIS ONE I HAVE. I WILL WRITE MORE LATER.
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1-13-06
WHERE TO START!!!!!
I THINK IM OVERWHELMED WITH EVERYTHING. IM SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. I HAVE HAD THOUGHTS OF BACKING OUT OF THIS.
I WENT TO ALL OF MY SCREENINGS AND NUTRITION APPOINTMENT, PSYC APPOINTMENT, ALL IN ONE DAY. I WENT TO THE SUPPORT GROUP LAST NIGHT, I THINK THAT MADE ME MORE SCARED. I AM HAVING SURGERY FEB 22ND. WHICH IS RIGHT DOWN THE ROAD.
I AM AFRAID, AFRAID OF A LOT OF THINGS. THIS IS A LIFE DECISION AND I AM AFRAID OF THAT. KNOWING I HAVE TO TAKE VITAMINS EVERY DAY JUST TO LIVE SCARES ME. WHAT IF I CAN’T GET THEM ALL IN? I WILL FEEL BAD AND SICKLY. I TRIED A PROTEIN DRINK THE OTHER DAY AND IT WAS HORRIBLE, JUST HORRIBLE. I KNOW IF I DON’T LIKE IT NOW I DEFIANTLY WONT LIKE IT AFTER SURGERY, AND HOW WILL I POSSIBLE MAKE MYSELF DRINK 2 OF THEM A DAY! AND THE FACT THAT MY ORGANS ARE GOING TO BE MOVED AND MADE INTO A NEW STOMACH SCARES ME. THERE IS NO GOING BACK.
A LOT OF THE POS-OPS STATED THEY WISH THEY WOULD HAVE DONE IT SOONER. AND SOME OF THEM STILL HAVE PROBLEMS GETTING IN ALL THERE NUTRIENTS. THEY HAVE ALMOST ALL HAVE LOST THEIR HAIR. I KNOW I WANT AND NEED TO GET THIS SURGERY DONE. I JUST AM REALLY SCARED. IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN AND IT’S GOING TO HAPPEN IN 6 WEEKS!!!!!
I KNOW THIS IS A NORMAL FEELING TO BE SCARED.
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1-17-06
I AM FEELING BETTER ABOUT THIS WHOLE SURGERY THING. I AM STILL SCARED. I CRIED LAST NIGHT. I WAS UPSET BECAUSE WHAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME AND I END UP DYING MY SON WILL BE WITHOUT A MOTHER. I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS AND MADE ME UPSET. I AM VERY EMOTIONAL NOW. I KNOW IT’S BECAUSE OF BEING NERVOUS ABOUT MY SURGERY. I KNOW I WILL BE FINE. I WISH IT COULD ALL BE OVER AND ALREADY BE THE 22ND.
ANYWAYS I HAVE BEEN SICK LAST WEEK I HAD A STREP VIRUS. IM AM GLAD IM NOT SICK ANYMORE I HAD TO TAKE 3 DAYS OFF WORK. THANK GOD WE HAD FRIDAY AND THE NEXT MONDAY OFF. I NEED TO SAVE MY DAYS FOR WHEN I HAVE MY SURGERY.
I HAVE NOT BEEN GORGING MY SELF WITH EATING EVERYTHING IN SITE. I KNOW THAT WILL BE MORE WEIGHT TO LOSE. OVERALL I WILL BE OKAY. I KNOW I WILL. I HAVE ALL MY APPOINTMENTS DONE AND I HAVE MY LAST CONSULT WITH THE DOCTORS OFFICE ON FEB. 8TH, AND THEN THE SURGERY ON THE 22ND. 5 WEEKS AWAY.
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2-24-05
I WILL GET INTO DETAIL LATER WHEN I FEEL UP TO IT!
HEY EVERYONE, IM HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL TODAY. EVERYDAY GETS BETTER THEY SAY. AND SO FAR IT HAS. I CANT WAIT TO SLEEP IN MY OWN HOME TONIGHT. I HAVE PAIN IN MY STOMACH. I DIDNT HAVE A LOT OF GAS. BUT I DID EXPERIENCE SOME. I ATE A LITTLE EGGS FOR BREAKFEST AND 1 OZ OF YOGURT. I THINK IM GOING TO HAVE BROTH FOR DINNER TONIGHT. I STILL HAVENT HAD A BOWEL MOVEMENT YET. DR SPENCER IS A GREAT GUY (MY SURGON) AND JOHN (HIS ASSISTANT) THEY BOTH CAME TO THE HOSPITAL 2 TIMES A DAY. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO WALK A LITTLE AT HOME. IM AFRAID I WILL GET A BLOOD CLOT. I DONT WANT TO GET THAT.
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3-3-06
HELLO EVERYONE. I AM OFFICIALLY 9 DAYS POST OP. IT’S SO DIFFERENT STROKING THOSE KEYS ON THIS KEY BOARD!!!!! I HAVE LOST 18 POUNDS. I AM KNOCKING ON WOOD FOR THIS! I HAVE NOT THROWN UP, NOT BEEN NAUSEOUS, HAD A DISAGREEMENT WITH FOOD (YET), I HAVE BEEN UP AND ALLLL AROUND TOWN FEELING NORMAL AGAIN SINCE THE SURGERY AND I HAVEN’T HAD ANY PROBLEMS YET!!!! THE ONLY THING IS I THINK IM ALLERGIC TO THE STERI STRIPS ON MY TUMMY AND IT ITCHES AND HAS RAISED BUMPS... ITCHY SO BAD!!!!
ANYWAYS I DIDN’T KNOW HOW ADDICTED TO FOOD I WAS UNTIL AFTER THIS SURGERY, UNTIL AFTER I CANT HAVE IT!!! I WALK OUT OF MY HOUSE AND I CAN SMELL THE RESTAURANTS! FOR REAL. I NEVER "SMELLED" THEM BEFORE. I HAVE BEEN DYING TO EAT A HAMBURGER! AND I CANT WAIT UNTIL THAT DAY! I WILL BE SAD THAT I CANT HAVE SOME OF THE SAME STUFF AS I USE TO HAVE. BUT THAT’S OK AND IM WILLING TO ACCEPT THAT IN ORDER TO MAKE ME A HEALTHIER PERSON!
IM KINDA GETTING TIRED OF THIS LIQUID PHASE.
I HAVE STRUGGLED WITH GETTING ALL MY PROTEIN IN. I GUESS THAT WOULD BE MY DOWN FALL. I KNOW THAT’S AN IMPORTANT PART OF THIS NEW LIFESTYLE AND I KNOW I HAVE TO GET THOSE SHAKES DOWN!
I HAVE MY FIRST POST-OP CHECK UP TODAY. THE DR IS SO FUNNY. I LOVE HIM.
SO I AM DOING VERY VERY WELL, BETTER THAN WHAT I HAD ANTICIPATED. I STILL HAVE A LITTLE TENDERNESS IN MY TUMMY
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3-18-06
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN GOOD. I DON’T HAVE ANY BAD COMPLAINTS ABOUT THIS WHOLE SURGERY THING. I HAVE HAD ONE PROBLEM I ATE TO FAST AND I FELT A LITTLE BAD FOR ABOUT 30 MINUTES THEN I WAS BACK TO NORMAL. SO I HAVE TO "TRAIN" MYSELF TO EAT SLOWER. I HAVE BEEN EATING SOLID FOODS AND I CAN TOLERATE THEM. I AM STILL HAVING A PROBLEM TRYING TO GET THOSE NASTY NASTY PROTEIN DRINKS IN. VERY HARD FOR ME. I KNOW I NEED TO DO IT, BECAUSE THAT’S A MAJOR PART OF MY NEW LIFE. I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 24 LBS. NOT BAD FOR 24 DAYS POST OP. THE SCALE VARIES FROM TIME TO TIME. I NEED TO KEEP OFF OF IT, AND JUST CHECK MYSELF MAYBE ONCE A WEEK. I HAVE NOTICED ALOT OF MY CLOTHES AREN’T FITTING AS THEY ONCE WERE (TIGHT). A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE SAID HOW GREAT I LOOK AND I SEEM HAPPIER. WELL I AM. I AM A LOT HAPPIER. WELL OFF TO TAKE A SHOWER AND START MY DAY.
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03-31-06 I AM FEELING GOOD. A LITTLE TIRED LATELY. I HAD A PRE-OP APPOINTMENT WITH MY NUT. YESTERDAY SHE CLEARED ME TO EAT SOLID FOODS NOW. I TOLD UMMM I HAVE BEEN EATING SOLID FOODS. I HAVE BEEN DOING REALLY WELL WITH THE FOOD I EAT. I AM EATING MORE HEALTHY FOODS THAN WHAT I USE TO. I WAS READING A FEW POSTS UP AND IT SAID I WANTED A HAMBURGER SO BAD. WELL I HAD A COUPLE OF BITES OF ONE, AND GUESS WHAT IT DIDN’T EVEN APPEAL TO ME, AND I DONT EVEN HAVE A TASTE FOR IT ANYMORE. I DONT HAVE A TASTE FOR FAST FOOD, GREASY, NASTY FOODS ANY MORE. ITS FUNNY HOW THEY SAID THAT MY TASTE BUDS WOULD CHANGE. AND THEY HAVE! I DIDN’T BELIEVE IT. I DONT EVEN EAT YOGURT ANY MORE. IT JUST DOESN’T APPEAL TO ME. AND THERE ARE MORE THINGS THAT DONT APPEAL TO ME. OH WELL. IN ON A VEGGIE KICK RIGHT NOW.
MY GRANDFATHER HAS BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL FOR 8 WEEKS NOW AND HE IS FINALLY OFF THE VENTILATOR AND A CATHETER. HE IS DOING BETTER EACH DAY. HE WILL FINALLY BE HOME WEDNESDAY!
ANYWAYS I FEEL GOOD AND HAPPY!
OH IM DOWN 34 LBS!
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04-09-06
I HAD A GREAT WEEKEND. A BUNCH OF US GIRL AND GUYS MET FROM UP HERE AND WENT OUT TO DINNER AT JOES CRAB SHACK, AND THEN WENT UPSTAIRS TO HAVE A NICE DAY CAFE AND DANCED ALL NIGHT. IT WAS FUN. I LOVE ALL THE PEOPLE I MET. THEY WE ALL HAD GREAT ATTITUDES AND LOOKED BEAUTIFUL!!! THEY HAVE CAME ALONG WAY THROUGH ALL THIS STRUGGLING TIME GOOD AND BAD. I GOT SOME GOOD TIPS AND POINTERS.
I AM IN MY 8TH WEEK AND I AM DOWN 37LBS. THE SCALE FINALLY MOVED. I HAVE TO STOP WATCHING IT. I FEEL SOOO MUCH BETTER THAN WHAT I DID 2- 3 MONTHS AGO! WHEN I WAS ALMOST 300 LBS. THAT’S SO HARD TO BELIEVE I LET MYSELF GET THAT FAT! THAT UNHEALTHY!!!! I CAN SEE SO MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE IN MYSELF. EVERYONE AT WORK, MY FAMILY, AND FRIENDS TELL ME ALL THE TIME YOU ARE LOSING SOOO MUCH WEIGHT AND YOU LOOK GOOD. THAT’S THE FIRST TIME SOMEONE SAID THAT TO ME AND I BELIEVE THEM NOW. BECAUSE I KNOW I DO LOOK BETTER I LOOK HEALTHIER! THAT’S THE WHOLE IDEA! I HAVE BEEN EATING SALADS AND SPINACH, FRUITS AND VEGGIES UP THE YIN YANG!!!!! I FOUND A PROTEIN DRINK THAT I ACTUALLY CAN DRINK!!!!!! IT IS THE ACHIEV COFFEE DRINKS THEY HAVE I THINK 20 GRAMS OF PROTEIN. THEY TASTE LIKE THE STARBUCKS FRAP. THINGS. YUMMMM....
ANYWAYS I CANT WAIT UNTIL THE WARM WEATHER I AM SOOO COLD ALL THE TIME. CAN’T WAIT TO GO SWIMMING OUT SIDE (TIRED OF FREEZING IN THE INDOOR POOL AT YMCA!)
I WILL BE GETTING A PASS TO OCEAN BREEZE THIS YEAR AND TAKE CAMERON OUT HE WILL LOVE THAT!
I AM GLAD I HAVE MET SOME NEW COOL ASS PEOPLE THAT WE CAN ACTUALLY SHARE STORIES AND HAVE GOOD THINGS IN COMMON! LOVE IT!
ANYWAYS IM GONG TO GO NOW, SOPRANOS IS GETTING READY TO BE ON, AND I CANT MISS THAT!
LOVE EVERYONE, AND I LOVE MYSELF NOW. MORE LATER!
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HAPPY DAY FOR ALL. SOME PEOPLE ARE STRESSED DEPRESSED THEY MAY HAVE LOST THERE WEIGHT AND STILL DEPRESSED ABOUT THERE BODIES! BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE A LOT HEALTHIER WITH SAGGY SKIN THEN BEING FAT!!! BE THANKFUL YOU HAVE YOUR HEALTH AND YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE AND NOT LAID UP IN A HOSPITAL 24/7 FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!
MY GRANDPA JUST GOT HOME FROM A 8 WEEK VACATION AT THE HOSPITAL AND RE-HAB (HIS COLON RUPTURED BATTLING CANCER) WHILE VISITING HIM EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!!!!!!! I MET A LOT OF OTHER PATIENTS WHO WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO WALK AND TALK AND JUST LAY THEIR ALL DAY, DAY IN DAY OUT! THAT IS NO WAY TO LIVE. BEING KEPT ALIVE ON FEEDING TUBES AND VENTILATORS. AND SOME PEOPLE ARE WORRIED ABOUT SAGGY SKIN! MAKES YOU THANK GOD YOU WERE ABLE TO GET YOUR SURGERY AND BE ABLE TO BE FINALLY BE HEALTHY.
SO EVERY DAY I THANK GOD I PRAY EVERY NIGHT AND I THANK HIM FOR EVERY GOOD THING AND BAD THING IN MY LIFE. HE PUT THOSE "BOULDERS" (BAD THINGS) IN MY PATH OF LIFE SO I CAN LEARN AND BETTER MYSELF! AND IT SURE HAS HELPED SO I THANK HIM EVERYDAY. MY FAVORITE MOTTO AND THAT KEEPS ME GOING IS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!
OK ENOUGH SPOUTING OFF. LOVE YOU ALL. AND I HOPE I DIDN’T OFFEND ANYONE!
CHERYL
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4-13-06 6 years ago today :(
IT WAS A ROUTE DR APPOINTMENT TO CHECK MY BABIES HEART BEAT, AND TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING WAS GOING GOOD WITH HER. HAILEY ELIZABETH ANGELINA COLEMAN IS GOING TO BE HER NAME. I WAS ON THE TABLE WITH THE NURSE AS SHE PUT THE DOPPLER UP TO MY LARGE BELLY. I HEARD A HEART BEAT AND IT WAS STRONG. SHE MOVED THE DOPPLER TO ANOTHER SPOT ON MY BELLY. ALL OF THOSE OUT THERE WHO WERE FAT ON TOP OF BEING PREGNANT ITS UNCOMFORTABLE THING TO PULL YOUR SHIRT UP AND HAVE SOMEONE YOU DON’T KNOW LOOK AT IT, ETC.... WE HERE SHE IS MOVING THIS DOPPLER ALL OVER MY BELLY. I ASKED HER WHY ARE YOU MOVING SO MUCH AND NOT LEAVING IT WHERE THE STRONG HEART BEAT WAS? SHE SAID THAT WAS YOUR HEART BEAT. MY HEART DROPPED! I KNEW RIGHT THEN AND THERE THERE WAS ONLY ONE HEARTBEAT INSIDE AND IT WAS MINE. THE NURSE SAID SHE HAD AN OLD DOPPLER THAT SHE WOULD GET a new Doppler and a more experienced nurse. She confirmed my worst fear! The doctor came in and by this time I am crying. The doctor said ohh everything will be ok the baby is just laying in an awkward position. They took me in the ultrasound room by that time there were 4 nurses and 2 doctors. She told me that there wasn’t much fluid around the baby, and she needed a better picture of the baby. Well I knew you just know!
Well I went to this doctor’s appointment by myself! Boyfriend (now ex-boyfriend now!) is out "hanging out with friends" I begged him to go with me earlier that day. Well I call my mom and told her to go to the hospital, I go to the hospital with my "x" and they had me get on a gown and they took him and me down to the ultrasound room.
The tech. wasn’t in the room yet; I turned the monitor so it could face me. When he came in of course he turned it back. So here once again someone on my belly taking pictures and measuring scanning. Etc.
It was silent the whole entire time. I asked him could you tell me what’s going on. He said no I couldn’t say anything I can only do this ultrasound. I said sir please! Just tell me if there is any movement or fluid! And he said no. So there you have it.
I felt sooo alone!
Next thing I know the im back in my room the doctor is there giving me options, to I want to abort the baby like an abortion or do I want to go through labor. I choose labor. I thought to myself if this is the only time I will ever make it this far with a child then I want to know how labor is. So I went through all the labor etc....
I gave birth to a baby girl, 1 lb 9 inches. She looked like her dad. The doctor told me she would have her eyes closed and other things that she may look like. But little Hailey wanted to see her mommy, because her eyes were open.
She is in a better place. She is my angle that fly’s next to me. She is the touch I feel when no one is behind me. She is my angle.
I was very very depressed after this. I was only 18.
I know have a son, healthy beautiful son, (same dad, but now in prison)
So im a single mother struggling to raise a son by myself! I wouldn’t trade it for the world!
But today is special today Hailey would have been 6 years old! I often wonder what she would look like, how she would act, what she would be doing right now if she was still here. I know and I understand god needed that sweet baby up there with him. I will see her again one day.
Thanks for listening to me.
Cheryl
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4-14-06
I WENT TO THE SUPPORT GROUP YESTERDAY. IT WAS VERY GOOD MET A NEW PERSON. SEEN MY DR. HE IS SO SWEET!
IM GLAD ITS FRIDAY! WEEKEND IS HERE, I CAN SLEEP IN!
I HOPE IF CAMERON DOESNT WAKE ME UP BEFORE SUNRISE! I AM TAKING CAMERON EASTER EGG HUNTING AT THE CITY PARK ON SATURDAY. I AM FEELING GOOD TODAY. EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD. MORE LATER!
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5-3-06
EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD. I AM DOWN 50 LBS I AM WEIGHING IN AT 247. I HAVEN’T BEEN 247 IN GOD KNOW HOW LONG!!!!! TONIGHT IS MY LAST CLASS AT TCC (COMMUNITY COLLEGE) THANK GOD. I AM SOOO DONE WITH SCHOOL. I WORE A SKIRT TODAY; I HAVEN’T WORN A SKIRT IN 3 YEARS! 3 YEARS!!!!!!! AND I GOT SO MANY COMPLIMENTS TODAY. I WAS NEVER ONE TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION. WHEN PEOPLE CALL ME OUT AT WORK I GET EMBARRASSED, BUT I FEEL GOOD. NOT TOO MUCH HAS CHANGED REALLY. I AM TAKING ALL MY MEDS AND PROTEIN SHAKES. I WORK OUT AT THE GYM WHEN I GET HOME FROM WORK. I HAVEN’T EATEN ANYTHING SWEET IN A VERY LONG TIME. I CAN EAT ABOUT 3-4 OZ OF FOOD NOW. STILL NOT A LOT. BUT IT’S MORE THAN WHAT I WAS ABLE TO EAT AT THE BEGINNING.
IT’S SO HARD TO BELIEVE HOW MUCH FOOD I REALLY USE TO EAT. I HAVE IT IN MY HEAD I ONLY EAT THIS LITTLE AMOUNT OF FOOD AND THAT’S NORMAL. AND WHEN I SEE MY FAMILY OR FRIENDS EAT IM LIKE DANG I REMEMBER WHEN I USE TO OUT EAT THEM! IT’S SO WEIRD. ON TOP OF THAT I KNOW NOW IT’S OK TO LEAVE FOOD ON MY PLATE AND SAY IM FULL! THAT’S WHAT GETS ME. I USE TO POLISH OFF A PLATE AND THEN TAKE MORE AND POLISH OFF THAT ONE! ITS CRAZY.... I AM SO GLAD AND I THANK GOD ALL THE TIME FOR ALLOWING ME TO GET THIS SURGERY DONE, AND IMPROVE MY LIFE. I NEVER REALIZED HOW ADDICTED TO FOOD I REALLY WAS. I CAN FINALLY SAY FOR THE FIRST TIME I FEEL LIKE IM HEALTHY. IM STILL 247 BUT I FEEL HEALTHY. I FEEL BETTER! I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK TO WHERE I WAS AT ALMOST 300 LBS.
HERE ARE SOME RECENT PICTURES I TOOK
-50 LBS!
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5-26-06
I WENT TO MY 3 MONTH CHECK-UP TODAY. I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 61 LBS. DR SPENCER SAID ALL MY LEVELS AND STATS WERE LOOKING VERY WELL. HE SAID I AM NO LONGER MORBID OBEASE.
I FEEL GREAT ABOUT MYSELF. I AM STILL GLAD I GOT THIS DONE. I DONT HAVE ANY COMPLAINTS ABOUT IT.
I AM NOW WEARING SIZE 18 SOME 16. I WAS WEARING SIZE 24 BEFORE SURGERY. I HAVENT SEEN SIZE 18 IN A LONG LONG LONG TIME. SINCE AT LEAST HIGH SCHOOL! IT FEELS GOOD.
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5-31-06
I HAD A GREAT HOLIDAY WEEKEND. SPEND LOTS OF TIME AT THE BEACH AND THE POOL. I FEEL SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENT NOW THEN EVER BEFORE. A COUPLE OF US TINY POUCH PEOPLE PRE & POST WENT TO A CLUB AND WENT DANCING. WE HAD FUN.
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6-5-06
EVERYTHING IS GOOD. I AM DOWN 63 LBS. EVERYTHING IS THE SAME REALLY. I AM RUNNING OUT OF CLOSE TO WEAR. HER IS A NEW PIC. I CAN ACTUALLY SAY I LOOK SEXY. CONFIDENT!
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06-14-06
NOT MUCH DIFFERENT HERE.
I AM DOWN 66 LBS... THATS A NICE NUMBER. I THINK I HAVE MADE A PERSONAL GOAL TO GET TO 150 LBS. I AM WEIGHING IN AT 230 LBS NOW. SO THATS 80 MORE LBS TO GO.
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7-22-06
-80 LBS GONE FOREVER!!!!!! I FEEL SO GOOD ABOUT MYSELF...
EVERYTHING IS STILL GOING GOOD.....
SOCIAL LIFE IS ALOT BETTER. WORK IS STILL STRESFUL. EVERYTHING ELSE IS GOING GOOD. I WEAR SIZE 16/14 NOW...
DEPENDS ON WHO MAKES THE CLOTHES. I CANT BELIEVE I WEAR THIS SIZE. I HAVENT BEEN THIS SIZE IN A LONNNNGGGG TIME!!!
SO THAT MAKE ME FEEL GOOD... HERE ARE SOME NEW PICTURES....
8-14-06
EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD. I AM DOWN 91 LBS
I WEIGH 205. WENT FROM 296 LBS.
I SEE SUCH A HUGE DIFFERENCE IN MYSELF. A MORE HAPPIER HEALTHIER PERSON! HERE IS A PICTURE FROM TODAY.
I AM A SIZE 14 NOW....
GETTING LOW ON CLOTHES!!! THATS STRESSFUL. TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING TO WEAR!
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9-10-06
I WEIGH 199. SIZE 14. I HAVENT SEEN 199 IN A LONNNNGGGG TIME!!!!! ITS CRAZY HOW MUCH MY BODY HAS CHANGED IN THE PAST 6 MONTHS. HERE IS A CURRENT PIC WITH MY SON AND I. IT WAS HIS FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
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9-15-06
I AM ALMOST 7 MONTHS OUT. I WENT FROM 296 AND IM NOW AT 199 AND STILL DROPPING. I HAVE LOST 97 LBS. I WENT FROM SIZE 24 TO 12 NOW. I AM IN THE BETWEEN STAGES THE 14'S R NICE IN THE MORNING AND BY THE END OF THE DAY I LOOK LIKE A BAG LADY. THEY ARE HUGE.
ANYWAYS
MY BIRTHDAY IS SEPT 17TH. THIS IS THE BEST! BIRTHDAY PRESENT TO MYSELF. I AM SO HAPPY IN MY LIFE! IM HAPPY HOW I LOOK IM HAPPY HOW I FEEL! I WOULD NEVER THINK IN A MILLION YEARS THAT I WOULD EVER BE THIS SMALL. AND IM STILL NOT DONE LOSING. I GET COMPLIMENTS A LOT OF HOW GOOD I LOOK AND THAT IM DOING A GOOD JOB. I STILL FEEL LIKE THAT FAT GIRL IN MY HEAD. I KNOW IM NOT THAT ONCE FAT GIRL. WHEN I LOOK IN A MIRROR SOMEWHERE SOMETIME I HAVE TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE AND ASK MYSELF IS THAT ME. WHEN I SEE NEW PICTURES OF MYSELF, IM LIKE DAMN I REALLY AM PRETTY. ALL THAT WAS HIDING UNDER ALL THAT FAT. I CAN FEEL AND SEE BONES IN MY BODY I KNEW I HAD JUST NEVER SEEN BEFORE. 7 MONTHS IS FAST TO GET TO "LEARN" THIS NEW PERSON, THIS NEW BODY. I CAN HAPPILY SAY I AM LOVING LIFE. NOW AT AGE 26 I CAN ENJOY MY LIFE AND I AM HAPPY.
THIS JOURNEY IN MY LIFE HAS BEEN THE BEST. I HAVE MET A LOT OF COOL NEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE THINGS IN COMMON WITH. THESE PEOPLE HERE ON THIS BOARD ARE MY SUPPORT AS WELL. I HAVE LEARNED A LOT FROM THEM. I AM SO GLAD I WENT THROUGH WITH THIS TO GET THIS TOOL TO HELP ME BECOME A BETTER, HAPPIER, AND HEALTHIER PERSON.
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10-2-06
I HAVEN’T WEIGHED MYSELF IN A MINUTE CAUSE THE SCALE NEEDS A NEW BATTERY. BUT THE LAST TIME I DID IT SAID 199. THAT WAS ABOUT 3 WEEKS AGO I GUESS... I THINK I NEED TO GO GET A NEW BATTERY!!!!!
I AM WEARING A SIZE 12. THEY ARE STARTING TO GET BAGGY AT THE END OF THE DAY. SO I MIGHT BE IN A 10 BEFORE I KNOW IT. BUT ALTHOUGH MY ACTUAL HIP-BONES ARE WIDE SO WHO KNOWS WHAT SIZE I WILL TURN UP TO BE. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD BIGGER HIPS. IM GLAD IM CURVY!!! HERE ARE SOME NEW PICS...
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10-3-06
ok i weighed myself. i am exactly 100 lbs gone for ever!!!!
i weigh 196. i started at 296.
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11-30-06
oh my!!! what a new life! i love it! i weigh 180. i am down 116 lbs. still a size 10/12. i dont want to get much smaller. i still have the curves though!!!!
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4-24-07
ok i havent updated this thing in a while...
i am size 8/10. weight 168-170. of course it always changes. im glad i weigh that much and not how much when i started out at! 290!!! scary... i still have people come up to me and ask if something is different about me... ummm.. yeah about 126lbs difference!!
i dump. i hate it. but it only last about 30-45 min...
im glad i did this!
