I'm Still here!

Jan 08, 2009

It is now 2 years since I was given the gift of a fighting chance.  I love my new life I even like my body again.  I am now weighing in at 153.  Instead of 332!  i still can not beleive I was as large as I was.  I look at photos of myself and get so emotional.  My friends and family continue to be supportive.  I have changed jobs.  I never would have had the courage to do so if I had not changed my body.  I am a confidant and succesful woman.  (my spelling still stinks, but oh well.  )

I am now wearing a comfortable size 12, I still wear a large top, because I don't like things snug, I do have some mediums that fit nice, but others buy them for me, I have not been able to pick up the ,ediums off the rack, is that weird???  i also had my husband forbid me to wear my 14s he says they are rediculous.  hah ha.  i do have a few 10s in dresses they fit fine, but I again just don't like the feel of fabric snug on my body. 

I did finally speak with a plastic surgeon i got his name from barix, he was so dear and I am actually excited about the thought of having the skin and flab removed.  he is confidant it will make a huge differance and it will be worth the "pain".  if anyone ever reads this syuff please let me knw. I feel sort of stupid rambleing on.  It is kind of cool to go back and look at what I have written.  my only exercise is walking and a crazy fun Zoomba class at work 2 nights a week.
i still feel like I should be doing more, but I just don't know how. 

I am just out of time and energy at the end of the day.  my mom broke her leg in 3 places cooking dinner on Christmas eve.  We will be helping her in her home for the next5 -6 months, she can not bear weight or move her leg for the next 3 months.  and then the fun part of rehab will begin.  The poor soul has a long road ahead.  I have no idea how we will get through this one.  but I know through the grace of God we will. 

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