Ellebelle
My Diary
Nov 22, 2006
12/7/05 I have been obese all my life. Once I started having kids I moved in to the morbid obese catagory. The word morbid just makes me sound horrible. I've hit an all time low and decided that the only way I could change my life is with a little help. I made an appointment for today to talk to a doctor about weight loss and possible surgery. I need tools! I'm not sure what tools I'm looking for but I think I've made a positive step towards the future and can't wait to start my journey.
12/8/05 Well I went to the doctor yesterday. I had to go in fasting and they did some tests. (Both Blood work and the metabolism test) I got my resaults of the metabolism and I couldn't believe it. My resting metabolism is fast!!! How weird! I'm overweight and have a fast metabolism. The doc put me on another diet 1600-1800 calories and 180g of carbs a day. She said that the doctor I saw before had me on a bed diet. I was on a 1200 calorie diet and 36g of fat a day. I guess only time will tell if this diet works. I doubt it though, Atkins didn't work. I also talked to the Bariatric Coordinator and there is an information meeting tonight. WE ARE GOING!
12/20/05 I turned in my packet and also talked to the coordinator. I feel a little more at ease with the surgeon if I do choose to go with this. I told her I want to get started but I'm very scared and I wanted to make sure I could back out if I decided this wasn't right for me. She said I have to the time they wheel me down to surgery. Whew! I have a much better feeling about things already.
12/21/05 Well I have been following this diet the doctors put me on. It's so hard! I have to force myself to eat and then I get sick. What a joke. I'm on a diet and force feeding myself. Just don't make sense. LOL Anyway I'm down 1.5 pounds. Not too excited with that number as the scale moves 5lb up and down all the time.
1/31/06
Wow! It's been awhile since I've updated this...... I've been continuing my care at the weight loss and bariatric clinic in Willmar. I am up 3.5 lbs but it's all muscle mass. That is what the machine tells us anyway. LOL Anyway I receive a call today from the surgery coordinator and she said I've been accepted as a WLS candidate. Does this mean the ball is rolling? I hope so. I told myself not to get my hopes up too much as I've seen too many people on this board come crashing down after jumping through hoops.
Feb. 22 will be my next appointment so I guess I'll just live one day at a time until then.
3/18/06
I met with the surgery coordinator for my educational meeting. I was at the doctor's office 4 long hours. She explained to me how the surgery works again and all the different steps I need to take yet. Well to my surprise she was able to get me in for my phsyc eval and my sleep apnea test in two weeks!!!! I can't believe it! I know there is still a lot of time but I feel like things are moving along nicely.
4/10/06
Today I went to the learning center. I have need to quit smoking and the state of MN has a great plan to help and best of all it's free. I talked to the doctor there and discussed all the options and aids to help me quit. I really think this is going to work this time. Not only that but I can't have the surgery until I do so now there is a better reward.
4/17/06
Today Adam decided that it's our day to become tobacco free. What a great guy supporting the way he is. Wish us luck! I'm sure we'll need it.
4/24/06
I went to the doctor again today. Lately it seems that's all I do anymore. Good thing my husband is my boss or I would've lost my job by now. I got my resault today from my phsyc eval and my sleep apnea tests and to my surprise I'm NORMAL! I met the bariatric dietitian today. I wish I would have seen her a little sooner as she does things a lot different, and easier as far as journaling goes. Oh well she's mine now so I can live with that. The doctor told me today that as soon as I'm smoke free for 8 weeks I can start the next step and that will be meet the surgeon and send my papers for approval. I can't believe it. I have 7 more weeks to move on to the next step. WOOHOO! I can't wait.
Okay well 7 weeks came and went and still nothing. We'll see what happens. One day at a time right?
7/18/06
Went to a routine doctor's appt today and I am now scheduled to see the surgeon on August 2nd. I almost puked on my shoes I was so excited.
8/2/06
Today was a weird but very eventful day. I went to see the nutritionist and she was very pleased with my progress and all the things I have do to prove that I truly want to use the tool they are going to give me. Then I met with Dr Bell which made me a little more relieved after talking to him. I had three sheets of questions and he answered every one of them. BTW I HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!!!! Sept. 26th. I could've went earlier but we are moving and I have a bunch of things going on with the kids that I didn't feel right. I have to go for my pre-op physical two weeks before the suregery and my education classes in 3 weeks. I'm so excited.
8/24/06
Went to the support group tonight. I feel so much better. My nerves are put to rest of another week. 4 more weeks and counting. I'm scared excited nervous and stressed.
8/28/06
I'M APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! I got the call today. Apparently they called on Friday and Kathy was out so she didn't get the message until today. It's all real and I am so happy!!! Now just to get moved and all my other doctor's appts done before Sept. 26! I'm starting to stress a little.
9/14/06
I had my cooking class and finished all my pre-op appointments. I can't believe it's less then two weeks away. Holy Crap!!! I get nervous just thinking about it. Can't wait to join everyone in Loserville.
9/22/06
Two days and a wake up until the big day! I am getting so emotional. I can't believe that it's here. I keep thinking this could it I may not wake up. I"m soooooo scared. I know I wil be fine but I can't help but think ya know?
9/25/06
Today is my lastnight before surgery. I am numb and don't feel anything at this point. I'm nervous and scared but still in shock.
9/26/06
Day of surgery. This morning was hard. My love of my life and I were the only ones in my room waiting for surgery. It was a very intimate morning.
RECOVERY: I am in my room now and my mouth is so dry and I'm sleepy. My beloved husband is still sitting by my side. I told him to go as I can not keep my eyes open and I know he needed to rest. There was some confusion as to what I was allowed to do the first day so I wasn't able to go for a walk. I was very upset about this but did talk the nurses into letting me walk to the chair in my room. My back hurt sooooooo bad from the gas I couldn't stand to be in my bed.
9/27/06
Finally!!!! They let me walk today. I feel so much better. I had my leak today and it came back negative. Yay! Now I get to
12/8/05 Well I went to the doctor yesterday. I had to go in fasting and they did some tests. (Both Blood work and the metabolism test) I got my resaults of the metabolism and I couldn't believe it. My resting metabolism is fast!!! How weird! I'm overweight and have a fast metabolism. The doc put me on another diet 1600-1800 calories and 180g of carbs a day. She said that the doctor I saw before had me on a bed diet. I was on a 1200 calorie diet and 36g of fat a day. I guess only time will tell if this diet works. I doubt it though, Atkins didn't work. I also talked to the Bariatric Coordinator and there is an information meeting tonight. WE ARE GOING!
12/20/05 I turned in my packet and also talked to the coordinator. I feel a little more at ease with the surgeon if I do choose to go with this. I told her I want to get started but I'm very scared and I wanted to make sure I could back out if I decided this wasn't right for me. She said I have to the time they wheel me down to surgery. Whew! I have a much better feeling about things already.
12/21/05 Well I have been following this diet the doctors put me on. It's so hard! I have to force myself to eat and then I get sick. What a joke. I'm on a diet and force feeding myself. Just don't make sense. LOL Anyway I'm down 1.5 pounds. Not too excited with that number as the scale moves 5lb up and down all the time.
1/31/06
Wow! It's been awhile since I've updated this...... I've been continuing my care at the weight loss and bariatric clinic in Willmar. I am up 3.5 lbs but it's all muscle mass. That is what the machine tells us anyway. LOL Anyway I receive a call today from the surgery coordinator and she said I've been accepted as a WLS candidate. Does this mean the ball is rolling? I hope so. I told myself not to get my hopes up too much as I've seen too many people on this board come crashing down after jumping through hoops.
Feb. 22 will be my next appointment so I guess I'll just live one day at a time until then.
3/18/06
I met with the surgery coordinator for my educational meeting. I was at the doctor's office 4 long hours. She explained to me how the surgery works again and all the different steps I need to take yet. Well to my surprise she was able to get me in for my phsyc eval and my sleep apnea test in two weeks!!!! I can't believe it! I know there is still a lot of time but I feel like things are moving along nicely.
4/10/06
Today I went to the learning center. I have need to quit smoking and the state of MN has a great plan to help and best of all it's free. I talked to the doctor there and discussed all the options and aids to help me quit. I really think this is going to work this time. Not only that but I can't have the surgery until I do so now there is a better reward.
4/17/06
Today Adam decided that it's our day to become tobacco free. What a great guy supporting the way he is. Wish us luck! I'm sure we'll need it.
4/24/06
I went to the doctor again today. Lately it seems that's all I do anymore. Good thing my husband is my boss or I would've lost my job by now. I got my resault today from my phsyc eval and my sleep apnea tests and to my surprise I'm NORMAL! I met the bariatric dietitian today. I wish I would have seen her a little sooner as she does things a lot different, and easier as far as journaling goes. Oh well she's mine now so I can live with that. The doctor told me today that as soon as I'm smoke free for 8 weeks I can start the next step and that will be meet the surgeon and send my papers for approval. I can't believe it. I have 7 more weeks to move on to the next step. WOOHOO! I can't wait.
Okay well 7 weeks came and went and still nothing. We'll see what happens. One day at a time right?
7/18/06
Went to a routine doctor's appt today and I am now scheduled to see the surgeon on August 2nd. I almost puked on my shoes I was so excited.
8/2/06
Today was a weird but very eventful day. I went to see the nutritionist and she was very pleased with my progress and all the things I have do to prove that I truly want to use the tool they are going to give me. Then I met with Dr Bell which made me a little more relieved after talking to him. I had three sheets of questions and he answered every one of them. BTW I HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!!!! Sept. 26th. I could've went earlier but we are moving and I have a bunch of things going on with the kids that I didn't feel right. I have to go for my pre-op physical two weeks before the suregery and my education classes in 3 weeks. I'm so excited.
8/24/06
Went to the support group tonight. I feel so much better. My nerves are put to rest of another week. 4 more weeks and counting. I'm scared excited nervous and stressed.
8/28/06
I'M APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! I got the call today. Apparently they called on Friday and Kathy was out so she didn't get the message until today. It's all real and I am so happy!!! Now just to get moved and all my other doctor's appts done before Sept. 26! I'm starting to stress a little.
9/14/06
I had my cooking class and finished all my pre-op appointments. I can't believe it's less then two weeks away. Holy Crap!!! I get nervous just thinking about it. Can't wait to join everyone in Loserville.
9/22/06
Two days and a wake up until the big day! I am getting so emotional. I can't believe that it's here. I keep thinking this could it I may not wake up. I"m soooooo scared. I know I wil be fine but I can't help but think ya know?
9/25/06
Today is my lastnight before surgery. I am numb and don't feel anything at this point. I'm nervous and scared but still in shock.
9/26/06
Day of surgery. This morning was hard. My love of my life and I were the only ones in my room waiting for surgery. It was a very intimate morning.
RECOVERY: I am in my room now and my mouth is so dry and I'm sleepy. My beloved husband is still sitting by my side. I told him to go as I can not keep my eyes open and I know he needed to rest. There was some confusion as to what I was allowed to do the first day so I wasn't able to go for a walk. I was very upset about this but did talk the nurses into letting me walk to the chair in my room. My back hurt sooooooo bad from the gas I couldn't stand to be in my bed.
9/27/06
Finally!!!! They let me walk today. I feel so much better. I had my leak today and it came back negative. Yay! Now I get to