One Year Surgiversary!!!

Dec 01, 2009

Okay today is my one year surgiversary. I remember how excited I was and also how afraid I was.  I had a car accident a few years back and was prescribed some pretty strong pain meds and thought I may not wake up from the surgery...It still amazes me that I went through with it.   REALLY!!! When I woke up in recovery I was in some SERIOUS pain but the first thing that came to my mind was I'm ALIVE...thank you GOD!!!  The surgery is a risk as it is, without any other risk factors added.  People saying we took the easy way out...please...I risked my LIFE to save my life, give myself a better life expectancy, and to have a greater chance of having a better Quality of life.  I didn't take many pictures while I was fat.  The pictures that I do have are painful to look at.  I showed my kids and they said WOW I can't believe you were that big...Neither can I.  I KNOW I had body dysmorphic disorder because until I saw pictures of me after I had the surgery did I realize how FAT I really was. I mean it makes me want to cry when I see them and I cringe.  But here they are and I hope they serve someone going through this well because I am truly embarrassed at how I let myself get so far out of shape.

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