gigi32gigi
Update 12/21/2010
Dec 21, 2010
It has officially been 64 days since RNY surgery on 10/18/2010. I have lost a total of 47lbs. I wish I could say that I am happy with it. I am happy but I really feel that I should be losing more than this. For the month of December alone I have only lost 11 lbs.I must say that I know why or must take responsibility for this. I have not exercised and rarely have protein shakes. I try to get my protein in with eating meat and am limited to chicken at that but sometimes a small, small, small bit of ground beef or turkey. Don't really care for eggs much any more. I eat Greek yogurt with honey but cant eat an entire container. I am sure that I do not get enough water either. I feel so full so fast. Eating is no longer pleasurable and I find myself waiting for hours to pass so that I can eat a few more bites.
I want to do more I really do. Main culprit is myself next is the winter weather followed by personal family problems then financial issues. It leaves me just sitting at times waiting for the day to end so that I am able to get up and do it again the next day. Now my daughter is out of school for an entire month. Emotionally this is not a good thing right now. I do try to engage with her but mostly I want her to sit down and be silent. No way this will happen with a 6 yr old and it is so not fair to her. I am hanging in there and think that I make it sound worse than it is. I just really want to be alone and sleep days away. I know this is not possible so I just keep going.
I am almost down to 250 lbs and then it is treadmill time. I have not bought any new clothes and now nothing fits. Pants are a goner unless they have drawstrings. Tops are sloppy looking but I don't want to spend money on something I cant wear more than a month or 2. I think I should buy some sweats maybe.
All I ask is that someone prays for me. I really do need them at this time. I really can't ask for anything but that. Tomorrow will be better this I know.
