jephiner
3 months and 3 sizes smaller
Mar 23, 2008
Well - I feel I am going to have to start doing real work now.
For the first couple of months I was just so desperate to get something in me (due to usual issues + a stricture) and now I can eat a lot if I use some of the techniques I used to get down anything (drinking with eating, only eating very soft foods) It is time for me to transition to eating a) without water b) at certain times and b) being conscience of portion size and calorie count.
I know how hard it is going to be for me (I am already wanting to eat to sooth myself instead of when I am hungry) - It is like my addiction to food was just patiently waiting until I could physically eat again and now it is rubbing it's hands together in glee!
I am going to ensure I am aware when I am eating - I am going to start tracking my food - my hunger patterns - and ensure I am not washing my food out of my pouch.
I am also feeling the desire to start running again. I am still 220 - when I get to under 200 lbs I am going to join the local running club. I am excited about that! I know it will help my mood, it will help my body tone and get strong and it will help ensure my weight loss continues.
My hair is falling out crazy fast - my hairdresser says I still have lots and lots of hair so not to worry. I have always thinned my hair out so I didn't think this would bother me at all. There is so much hair though that it started to get to me. I can see why this is unnerving to people - especially people who really value their hair. I have always preferred having really short hair so even though mine is starting to grow, I can still happily cut it and not think twice.
I have been taking some Omega 3 fatty acids, and a multivitamin - I am going to have to add additional vitamins and suppliments to my day. Calcium, Vitamin B12. I have everything you could possibly want here - I had just stopped trying to take it until I was doing better again - and now that I am I think it is time to get it together.
Like I said - I can tell that this is where the work begins. I need to change my lifestyle and my way of thinking. I need to take care of myself. I don't know why that is such a life long battle.
My Uncle called the other day - he is thinking about getting a Lap Band. Now that I have had my RNY I can't even imagine why anyone would hesitate (he is a very large man and has been for as long as I can remember) - It is hard to not be a WLS 'pusher'! I just shared my experience and I guess we will see.
I am going to a friend's for dinner and I am wearing a size 16 dress and an XL sweater. The dress is fitted on top (which is where I am smaller) and loose on the bottom - and the sweater is tight. I am not really a 16 yet - but I am definitely licking the side of it. It is amazing how amazing the physical transformation is. I can't even believe this is only the beginning - I think I would have paid the money, endured the surgery and evertying - just to be as healthy as I am now, forget about another 70 lbs! Have I mentioned that I have been a size 16 except for maybe 2 month intervals when I was 15 and when I was 25. Holy Poop! I'll take some pictures for my 3 month pics!
Jen
For the first couple of months I was just so desperate to get something in me (due to usual issues + a stricture) and now I can eat a lot if I use some of the techniques I used to get down anything (drinking with eating, only eating very soft foods) It is time for me to transition to eating a) without water b) at certain times and b) being conscience of portion size and calorie count.
I know how hard it is going to be for me (I am already wanting to eat to sooth myself instead of when I am hungry) - It is like my addiction to food was just patiently waiting until I could physically eat again and now it is rubbing it's hands together in glee!
I am going to ensure I am aware when I am eating - I am going to start tracking my food - my hunger patterns - and ensure I am not washing my food out of my pouch.
I am also feeling the desire to start running again. I am still 220 - when I get to under 200 lbs I am going to join the local running club. I am excited about that! I know it will help my mood, it will help my body tone and get strong and it will help ensure my weight loss continues.
My hair is falling out crazy fast - my hairdresser says I still have lots and lots of hair so not to worry. I have always thinned my hair out so I didn't think this would bother me at all. There is so much hair though that it started to get to me. I can see why this is unnerving to people - especially people who really value their hair. I have always preferred having really short hair so even though mine is starting to grow, I can still happily cut it and not think twice.
I have been taking some Omega 3 fatty acids, and a multivitamin - I am going to have to add additional vitamins and suppliments to my day. Calcium, Vitamin B12. I have everything you could possibly want here - I had just stopped trying to take it until I was doing better again - and now that I am I think it is time to get it together.
Like I said - I can tell that this is where the work begins. I need to change my lifestyle and my way of thinking. I need to take care of myself. I don't know why that is such a life long battle.
My Uncle called the other day - he is thinking about getting a Lap Band. Now that I have had my RNY I can't even imagine why anyone would hesitate (he is a very large man and has been for as long as I can remember) - It is hard to not be a WLS 'pusher'! I just shared my experience and I guess we will see.
I am going to a friend's for dinner and I am wearing a size 16 dress and an XL sweater. The dress is fitted on top (which is where I am smaller) and loose on the bottom - and the sweater is tight. I am not really a 16 yet - but I am definitely licking the side of it. It is amazing how amazing the physical transformation is. I can't even believe this is only the beginning - I think I would have paid the money, endured the surgery and evertying - just to be as healthy as I am now, forget about another 70 lbs! Have I mentioned that I have been a size 16 except for maybe 2 month intervals when I was 15 and when I was 25. Holy Poop! I'll take some pictures for my 3 month pics!
Jen
A long 2 months
Feb 25, 2008
Well, it was a long 2 moths - I read the previous post and almost laughed out loud - I think that we the only day I was able to eat anything! No wonder I 'binged'
I ended up having a stricture - and had it stretched 3 weeks ago. I feel a lot better now. A LOT BETTER! I am still losing and am feeling semi human. I am not nearly as fatigued.
I am almost 10 weeks post op and I have lost 44 lbs. I am below my pre-pregnancy weight and about 10lbs from being smaller than my husband has ever seen me. What a trip!
I have been struggling some days. I cried last night when my husband cooked steak that was too dry for me to eat *L* Those of you who have been there know what I mean....but having this surgery means there are no 'breaks' which was entirely the reason why I had it done, but also can get to a girl.
My mom and I had a talk today. She was particularly upset when I told her I was getting this surgery. I could tell that she was wanting to be respectful that I was a grown up but I could tell that she was troubled that a) I wasn't asking her opinion (so she could easily give it) and b) quite frankly, she couldn't just tell me I wasn't allowed! Anyway - today she said that she realized that I was brave/strong/smart enough to have my own 'intervention' and that she realizes now, I knew what was best for myself. It was nice. Even when I hadn't been able to eat anything for days and was starting to hallucinate that everyone were walking chickens - I never have regretted this for a moment. Before I was dying(not so slowly) and had no hope. Now I am slowly growing stronger and healthier. How can I regret that?
I also notice I am able to really see the risks of my weight more - I mean I saw them before - but now I can actually allow myself to have an emotional reaction to the peril I was in. I look back and it scares the crap out of me. I am still scared where I am but I know I am moving in the right direction and I won't have to be afraid. What an incredible relief to a mom of two young boys.
Ok...well....I can't believe it has only been 2 months and I am down 1/3 of my excess weight. What a gift.
Jen
I ended up having a stricture - and had it stretched 3 weeks ago. I feel a lot better now. A LOT BETTER! I am still losing and am feeling semi human. I am not nearly as fatigued.
I am almost 10 weeks post op and I have lost 44 lbs. I am below my pre-pregnancy weight and about 10lbs from being smaller than my husband has ever seen me. What a trip!
I have been struggling some days. I cried last night when my husband cooked steak that was too dry for me to eat *L* Those of you who have been there know what I mean....but having this surgery means there are no 'breaks' which was entirely the reason why I had it done, but also can get to a girl.
My mom and I had a talk today. She was particularly upset when I told her I was getting this surgery. I could tell that she was wanting to be respectful that I was a grown up but I could tell that she was troubled that a) I wasn't asking her opinion (so she could easily give it) and b) quite frankly, she couldn't just tell me I wasn't allowed! Anyway - today she said that she realized that I was brave/strong/smart enough to have my own 'intervention' and that she realizes now, I knew what was best for myself. It was nice. Even when I hadn't been able to eat anything for days and was starting to hallucinate that everyone were walking chickens - I never have regretted this for a moment. Before I was dying(not so slowly) and had no hope. Now I am slowly growing stronger and healthier. How can I regret that?
I also notice I am able to really see the risks of my weight more - I mean I saw them before - but now I can actually allow myself to have an emotional reaction to the peril I was in. I look back and it scares the crap out of me. I am still scared where I am but I know I am moving in the right direction and I won't have to be afraid. What an incredible relief to a mom of two young boys.
Ok...well....I can't believe it has only been 2 months and I am down 1/3 of my excess weight. What a gift.
Jen
19 Days Post Op
Jan 05, 2008
Well, I have lost somewhere in the 15 -18 lbs area. I can't believe it. It is very exciting.
I ate a lot today - a full size protein drink, and then a small yogurt and then 2 shrimp. At about 8 I was still hungry and made about 2 cups of soup and then proceeded to eat 2 cups of fat free/sugar free yogurt!! This is, without a doubt, the most I have eaten in these 19 days. I feel a weird combination of satisfied and sick.
As a fat person I seem to really struggle with figuring out how much I have eaten. I know this was a large quantity but I don't think I was over my 800 calories but I am not sure. The whole thing makes me nervous. I am anxious about so much about my new stomach. I get anxious about how much I eat, how fast I eat, my fatigue, my lack of exercise. The whole life change is very nerve wracking.
Jen
I ate a lot today - a full size protein drink, and then a small yogurt and then 2 shrimp. At about 8 I was still hungry and made about 2 cups of soup and then proceeded to eat 2 cups of fat free/sugar free yogurt!! This is, without a doubt, the most I have eaten in these 19 days. I feel a weird combination of satisfied and sick.
As a fat person I seem to really struggle with figuring out how much I have eaten. I know this was a large quantity but I don't think I was over my 800 calories but I am not sure. The whole thing makes me nervous. I am anxious about so much about my new stomach. I get anxious about how much I eat, how fast I eat, my fatigue, my lack of exercise. The whole life change is very nerve wracking.
Jen
