It was a bad day...

May 15, 2009

I cried...really cried, for the first time yesterday since my surgery.

I don't know what really got into me. I was talking to my sis on the phone and she was asking me about how I was doing. I'm normally very optimistic and happy about my choice...but yesterday it all just fell down around me. I just fell apart. It's been very very rewarding. But hard all at the same time.

I've been getting sick, and it's all because I have a stricture. And it's taken it's toll on me. I was explaining how I'm never hungry, and when I do eat, I don't enjoy it. I know that it's normal, and most people say that it will pass with time. But being fat all my life I've never had to deal with this issue!!

I'm super lucky to have the support system that I do have. And my family and friends have been very supportive. It's just hard to be the only one in my family that is going through this. And those of you who have been here know that you feel alone sometimes. I just felt alone yesterday. And I cried. I balled like a baby. LMAO...

I'm better now. And I know that it's all uphill from here!

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