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I can't believe surgery is only 2 days away.  I am nervous but actually calmer than I have been.  Not so nervous about the actual surgery but about my life after surgery.  I feel I have prepared myself as much as I can up to this point but then I start hearing myself asking "Are you sure?", lol.  I am sure, darnit, I just wish my negative thoughts would keep to themselves and just leave me alone, lol. I have been a little worried about how I am going to get up out of bed or off the couch after surgery, a friend of mine is going to lend me a reclining chair, I hope that helps.  I have enough trouble getting up of the couch as it is,  just dont want to have to depend on someone else everytime I need to get up to get something or go to the bathroom, especially in the middle of the night. Oh well, that's enough for now.

I have been thinking about what to say on my initial post for days.  My story, once I write it, will be very similar to those I have read here.  The stories and testimonials I have read here have been so inspirational and comforting to me as I begin this life long journey to become thin and healthy.  Like a lot of you, I am excited and scared, anxious and nervous all at the same time.  The one thing I know for sure is that I am tired of living my life in the body I have.  I am unhealthy, with high blood pressure, high cholesterol, degenerative joints, arthritis, PCOS, psoriasis, depression, hypothyroidism and diabetes. And, oh yea, how could I forget, fat.  I have been given this awesome opportunity to change my life and I am going to take it and run with it.  It won't be long until I am on my way to losing like a lot of you.  I look forward to commencing this journey and making new friends that know what this is all about and we can share stories, cry, laugh, and support one another through the highs and lows.  We will all make mistakes along the way but we can learn from eachother and be eachother's greatest support.  I look forward to chatting with all of you as we strive to become the people we know we can be.