Kim C.
I'd like to leave a little information I find helpful when reading other people's profiles. I am 40 years old and 5'7" although last year I was consistently being measured at 5'6". I was married for the first time 2 years ago and I have a 15 year old daughter from a previous relationship. My husband is amazing and completely supportive - although he does worry about surgery in general. My daughter is all about her right now as it should be however she does look forward to being able to "dress me up". I think it's time to get real with myself. I need to lose this excess weight. I am extremely uncomfortable in my own skin. I have been overwight my whole life and truly obese for about 10 years. (with a few exceptions for weight watchers, LA weight loss, and South Beach). My true motivation is I am so tired of losing weight and gaining it. Every year I lose to about 210 and then stall. I start to give up and gain back all I have lost and a few more. That means every year I am a little larger than the year before. This New Year's Eve I thought I need to lose weight and the thought of working so hard - it gets harder every year only to gain it all back sunk me into a very deep depression until I finally decided to change that forever!! So I called the surgeon in January, went to his educational seminar in April and the rest is pretty much on here. I hate shopping so I wear the same ill-fitting clothing I have worn for years - less and less of it. I now have 3 outfits that fit. I went to DC with my family this summer and I was so embarrassed. I always looked like a slob. The clothes I have that fit are formless and elastic. I was so sweaty that before we even got out of the hotel there were wet marks on my chest and back. My face turned red easily and my feet hurt so much I am sure I did a lot of complaining. My seat belt in the car is so uncomfortable that I rarely wear it. I have very little energy and once my responsibilites are finished I cannot wait to take off my bra - which has become most uncomfortable and sit and watch tv or go on the computer. I am embarrassed to go to family functions. I can never remember what I looked like at the last one - what was my weight? I always vow that THIS is the last time I go feeling terrible and fat, but it never is. I haven't felt pretty in years. I cannot wait. I can't wait to be able to walk around with my family without swimming in my own sweat. I cannot wait to be able to get dressed with some choice instead of in my 3 outfit rotation. It is time and I am ready. I am tired of allowing food to control my life. I will use this tool to change my relationship with food forever.
