My Big Fat Head

Apr 21, 2009

Yesterday, i was fumbling through some of my fathers things in his den looking for stamps. I came accross some pictures from a vacation back in october that i had never seen. I looked HUGE! Am i really that fat. I had a double chin and squniting eyes from my big round cheeks. I looked liked the type of person that i see in the store, and go well at least i havnt gottin to that point yet! I am that person. I dont feel like a fat person. When i am in a room sorrounded with people, i dont think of myslef as the big girll in the room, but i am. Through out my life i have always felt normal, i was active in high school lots friends always had boyfriends, i didnt know i was so big.

Every once in a while i would get a comment though. My mother saying something slick, my friends playfully making fun of my big head, a rude jackass i didnt even no would make a comment. Or people would say "Why are you breathing so heavy" and i know idea. Pictures always brought it back to reality though. I havnt taken full body shot in years.

Then over the llast few years i had some embarrasing moments like, not fitting into an amusement park ride, airplane seatbelt not fitting, and sitting in desks in school all mortifying.

I told myself that was little stuff, and i did notmind, but that all changes when the health problems started rolling in. I know i have to do something. I thought i permantly dealt the fat card and would never know what it was like to walk around this earth "normal".

So i have decided im taking this bull by the horns and taking control of life.i put that picture up on my Mirror, so i can look at it every day IM going to get healthy, and really take care of myself. Alot of my time i spend worry about others. Now it Kimmie time! Its invigorating! You have to love yourself before you can love others right? Im going look like on the outside what i feel on the inside and that is BEAUTIFUL!!!!!



xoxoxox,
Kim

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