livelaughlovex
I am starting to finally get my life back together, bit by bit. It's been a tough journey for me, but I've gotten through it. I've defeated something that could have taken my life. Now, I am confident. I know that I am able to accomplish anything, no matter the size or the possible end results. I've grown mentally, realizing that holding grudges does nothing positive for you. It just prolongs the anger, the sadness, that started it all. Eventually, you have to let go. I've learned to appreciate the little things in life. Watching the autumn leaves fall on the ground, taking a walk while the wind brushes up against my face, holding my mother and hearing her say "I love you". Being diagnosed with cancer has opened my eyes and shown me what is most important. I've also realized how short life can actually be and have come to the conclusion that I must lose weight. I have always been the "bigger" kid - from as long as I can remember. I use to come home and question my mother - "How can I be so much larger than other children, when I eat the same things? Do the same things?" I could never quite understand it, but that was back when I didn't have the mindset to do anything about it. Now, I'm older and I do hope a bit wiser. I realize that I need to make a life style change and it has to be done now - no more procrastinating. I'm focused. I'm determined. I'm ready - ready to get my life back and live it to the fullest. 
