maribelm
well my struggles with weight loss started when i was in high school even though if you knew me you would have never guessed since i was the person everybody wanted to be friends with. deep down i struggled with how i looked. In all honestly, this shame i carried turned me to drugs/alcohol and gangs. It is wierd when I say that now because I dont present myself like that and my husband is always amazed by my past experiences. God saved me plenty of times but i knew that my time would run out if i didnt do something. my brother had weight loss surgery 10 years ago and i always told myself i am not that fat i could lose the weight. well 10 years passed and i wasnt getting thinner. in my life i have been made fun of but always shrugged it off by being the funniest/life of the party. when i met my husband 6 years ago, for the first time i started to really look at my weight as an issue especially since we started thinking about family. Before surgery the only thing I was proud of was that I have been sober for 6 years and my next goal was to finish school. well in 2005, I graduated with my AA in sociology and BA in Human Services, that goal completed. Next goal was to have a baby. Sure enough, i got pregnant a month after our wedding and four months later had a misscariage. this was the hardest day of my life and i blamed myself because my weight. then the lord blessed me with another pregnancy 2 months later and i had my daughter 5/1/05. But during that pregnancy i had another wake up call when i struggled with docs who didnt want to see me because of my weight. So here leads to my next goal of weight loss surgery. I basically decided 3 months before my actual surgery. And here I am almost 2 months post op and still in the wonderful shock but no have no regrets! So my next goal is to finish grad school which will be in May 2008, one more semester!!! YAY!!!God is good and he saved me again! 
