marsha62865
Marsha is my name. I am 41 years young. I am 5'1". Weigh 287 lbs. Looking for some friends to talk about my surgery with.
I have been thinkin of having surgery for 2 years now. So finally I have insurance and am gonna go threw with it.
My weight has held me back all my life. But the 1st reason I'm having it done for health reasons. Ive had high blood pressure since I was in 9th grade. Have been on depression pills for 10 years. My mother and dad have both had heart surgeries. My dad is a diabetic. And I have sleep apneia.
But most of all I wanna start a new life. When I was in 7th grade. I had a math teacher draw a picture of a fat person the the chalk board. Well he looked at me and laughed. I was so mad a whipped him the middle finger. Well I got suspended for 3 days. He also had the shop students make a wooden bulldozer. And everyday at lunch they had it .When I walked pass they would go beep beep beep. Sound of a bulldozer backing up.
So I have never been good around people. When I got my 1st job. It was weaving baskets. I did that in our basemnet so I wouldnt have to be around anyone. I finally got the nerve after 5 years to go out to the factory where they make the baskets.I only went cause they left me weave in their basement. Well I been there almost 20 years. But I've moved up stairs to work.But because there is only 3 of us. Th place was gonna close and I was so depressed because I can't go out in the world around people. I finally had to tell my mom why after being out of school for almost 18 years. She couldnt understand why I would'nt go find a job. But luckly I'm still working there. But I plain on gettting a new job. Hoping lossing weight wont make me so self concious.
My dream is to go to Disney World after I lose weight. We used to go to this amusement park every year and I would never ride to many rides. Because 1 day I went to get on this ride and the seatbelt wouldnt fit. They had to hold the ride so I could get off. Boy was I embarrased.
In my personal life. Well I never had one. If you can beleive this. My first date was when i was 35. I met a wonderful person on the internet. He never asked me what I looked like. So after 6 months of talking. I said I wanted to send him a picture. To my amasement he still cared for me. But glad he got to know the inner me first. It has been 4 years . We are still together . He moved from New York to Pennsylvania. If it wasn't for him not sure if I would still be around today.
Now about the surgery. I started in April of 2006 my 6 months of weigh ins. Found out my insurance wasn't gonna pay for it. But I still kept getttin weighed in. Because whatever it took. I WAS getting the surgery. So now my insurance is gonna pay for the surgery. I was scheduled for Nov 15th well then they changed it to Nov 28. Well I found out yesterday that they didn't have all my paperwork so they are changing it till Dec 11. I'm sooooooooooo bummed out. Hoping all goes well cause I really wasnna have this surgery done. So for now I'm asking for prayers. Because If I can't get the surgery not sure I know whats gonna happen.
