mom2boyz75
6 months post op!
Sep 28, 2011
Wow, I can't believe I'm a little over 6 months post op already! My starting weight was 283 lbs. I am now 193! That is 90 lbs in 6 months. CRRAAAZY! When I hit under 200 I did a little dance, I tell ya! I feel like a totally different person. I finally have my life back. Actually, I feel like my life is better than ever because when I was this weight in the past I was in college, not far out of high school and still had the self confidence/self esteem issues constantly worrying what everyone thought of me. Now, I just know I feel good and will NEVER return to the life I had just over 6 months ago where I was scared to even go out of the house, to any of my boys school events or even to the grocery store because I thought everyone was talking about or thinking terrible things about me.Last night I did something TOTALLY out of character. I joined a volleyball league!! First of all, I have lived in this small town with my fiance' for over 4 years and haven't ventured out enough to really even make A friend...SAD because I was always such a people person before I was 260+ lbs. SAD because I never had any problem making friends. So anyway, considering I've been here for this long without a friend and barely leaving the house (I'm a stay at home mom) and leading this sedentary lifestyle I had been leading, it's obvious how out of character this is. I hadn't played volleyball since HIGHSCHOOL...hello...like 16 years!! I was scared to go because I didn't know how competitive the league would be or my team would be, I was a bit worried because I didn't know anyone. I found out about it because my fiance' said a girl he used to work with posted about getting a team together on facebook and mentioned it to me and I said it sounded like fun and the next thing you know he says I'm on the team!! I was freaking out about what to wear, couldn't wear short sleeves because my arms are too flabby, couldn't wear shorts because of my cellulite and vericose veins...ok obviously I still have body image issues. I ended up saying oh well and wearing short sleeves but I wore yoga pants. It was freaking hot with them on, let me tell you, but I'm glad I did because I bought some knee pads prior and they were way to tight to wear. I didn't think it'd be a big deal because I could NEVER see myself getting down on the floor. OMG I have skinned knees and am going to have a HUGE bruise on one side of my hip and thigh from diving for the ball sideways. LOL I am SO glad I went. Granted, I wasn't as good as some of the girls in the league, but I am not the worst one on my team and I had quite a few good serves and saves!! I am excited to go next week. It goes til January so I will be able to get out of the house for some me time once a week for awhile, which I have desperately needed for 4 years! :D
Another thing to mention, my fiance' has been going through the WLS process as well and has his surgery date on Oct 11. YAY Jason! I am super excited for him to join me in this new lifestyle! I love to watch him when he starts getting his confidence back....that is SEXY! :) So just a bit of info...the psychologist here in town that did both of our psych evals for surgery was also my son's soccer coach. Jason had another meeting with him discussing surgery yesterday and he told Jason that he could not believe the change in me when he saw me at soccer. He said that the "confidence was just radiating out of her", the way I carried myself...that he couldn't believe how different I seemed, that I looked amazing. I thought that was pretty cool. I mean I know I feel good and better about myself, but I had no idea other people, near strangers, would notice. :) My 2 older boys (8 and 5) tell me all the time "Mommy you can tell that you lost weight" and my 8 year old said the other day that I look so skinny that I couldn't lose much more weight. :)
So even though I had numerous complications with this surgery, leak, ulcer, stricture, I now feel great and would do it all again in a heartbeat! I went from a size 24 jeans to a size 12, M in yoga/stretch pants and shorts and a size 3X in women's tshirts to a size XL or L. I remember dreaming about being a size 12 again...it seemed so surreal that it would ever actually happen to me. Hell, it still seems like a dream. I'm loving this life already and there is so many changes yet to come!
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About Me
Ironwood, MI
Location
30.2
BMI
Surgery
03/14/2011
Surgery Date
Mar 20, 2010
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