a question for you :)

May 07, 2012

that's me on the left, btw - circa 1982

I'm down 64lbs, clothes are too big, still working on water & nutrients.  But my loss is becoming PHYSICALLY obvious.

which got me thinking...

"what happens when you get "skinny"?

See, people are already treating me different.  Acting different towards me.  I'm already getting more attention.  More compliments on my clothes, hair, shoes.  More doors held open.  More people smiling at me.  More attention from men.  I'm not immune to this, and this isn't completely new to me. After all, I haven't always been this size.  BUT still...

What does happen when you get skinny?

My psychologist asked this during my pre-surgery evaluation, and I *thought* I had an answer.  I've been "skinny" before.  I'm ready for that - emotionally & intellectually.  I don't mind the attention, I know how to field it.  I just want to be healthier.

Hmph.

when I was skinny before, I was fighting that last 15 lbs.  10lbs.  5lbs.  Even when I was "skinny" - I thought I was fat.

I'mma need to ponder on this one, for real.  But what say you?  What happens when YOU get skinny?

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