Renee W.
4 more pounds until Onderland..
Nov 13, 2008
OK, so I have had a wonderful week. I am down to 204 pounds. I mean WOW. 4 more pounds until ONEDERLAND! 
Are you serious, this is so exciting to be in this wonderful time in my life. I have not been under two hundred pounds in like 15 years. This journey is so exciting. I really never thought I would be here ever again.
There are so many reasons I am fat. There are so many issues that I hid behind. It was so much easier to hide behind a fat body than to deal with those issues. It was easier to be fat so I did not get noticed and have to talk to people. It was easier to be fat so I did not have to get close to people as they just leave you anyway. Well, I am not going to be fat anymore and all those issues as to why I was fat are all coming to the surface. One by one I am grasping them by their ugly horns and wrestling them down to get rid of them. It will take time but I will overcome them.
It has been a challenging week emotionally and physically. I have had quite a bit going on at work getting ready for the holidays and Black Friday. We had all of the General Managers and District Managers in from all the other stores in my district. They came in to get some best practices for their departments. It was exciting, and nerve wracking. Everyone was impressed with the take-a-ways I gave to them. They were taking pictures of my department to take back to their locations. It was a great feeling.
I have been working so hard this week at eating at my planned and scheduled times. It is so hard when you are a Manager in a retail establishment. I am conquering my objectives. I am at 1000 calories a day and about 90 grams of protein. I am overwhelmed at the always having water with me but am finally getting used to drinking, drinking and drinking all day long. I am doing it though. That is what makes me most proud is that I am doing it. I am succeeding and I am prevailing.
It is sometimes hard to rise above those that hurt you and offend you. Then you have to sometimes step back and say OK what made them personally attack you. Did you maybe offend them first and not realize it. Intentional or unintentional that may be the facts. I know that I am extremely assertive and outgoing and outspoken. I posted a reply to someone on here and she turned it into a personal attack back against me and my family. I was so offended and actually deleted all but one of my posts. I am not sure why this person feels that they needed to be so hurtful but they are. I did realize after posting my last post that it does not matter.
Even in a support group setting you will find vain people who are here to get noticed and to say this is what I did. I hope I never become a person like this person it. I know I cannot have everyone as a friend, but that is what I want. I know that I cannot help everyone, but that is what I want. As much as this person hurt me this week, I realized one thing in this and that is I still have to love her through it. I still have to pray for her and I still have to welcome her even if I do not want to. That is what a support person does. I will rise above and be the one who steps out and reaches out as that is what I want.
I call myself a Christian. I uphold that and firmly believe in my being one. I do not always walk the walk as I should or talk the talk. My emotions get the best of me until God knocks me on the head and says WOE! Stop, think and pray. I will pray for this person every day that her journey here is one that will bring her closer to herself and her success.
I am only accountable for me and my behavior. I am accountable to those I support and those who are in my shadow. I want to love myself through this and other too.
It really is such a true statement.. one breath, one step and one day at a time together we will be better.
Are you serious, this is so exciting to be in this wonderful time in my life. I have not been under two hundred pounds in like 15 years. This journey is so exciting. I really never thought I would be here ever again. There are so many reasons I am fat. There are so many issues that I hid behind. It was so much easier to hide behind a fat body than to deal with those issues. It was easier to be fat so I did not get noticed and have to talk to people. It was easier to be fat so I did not have to get close to people as they just leave you anyway. Well, I am not going to be fat anymore and all those issues as to why I was fat are all coming to the surface. One by one I am grasping them by their ugly horns and wrestling them down to get rid of them. It will take time but I will overcome them.
It has been a challenging week emotionally and physically. I have had quite a bit going on at work getting ready for the holidays and Black Friday. We had all of the General Managers and District Managers in from all the other stores in my district. They came in to get some best practices for their departments. It was exciting, and nerve wracking. Everyone was impressed with the take-a-ways I gave to them. They were taking pictures of my department to take back to their locations. It was a great feeling.
I have been working so hard this week at eating at my planned and scheduled times. It is so hard when you are a Manager in a retail establishment. I am conquering my objectives. I am at 1000 calories a day and about 90 grams of protein. I am overwhelmed at the always having water with me but am finally getting used to drinking, drinking and drinking all day long. I am doing it though. That is what makes me most proud is that I am doing it. I am succeeding and I am prevailing.
It is sometimes hard to rise above those that hurt you and offend you. Then you have to sometimes step back and say OK what made them personally attack you. Did you maybe offend them first and not realize it. Intentional or unintentional that may be the facts. I know that I am extremely assertive and outgoing and outspoken. I posted a reply to someone on here and she turned it into a personal attack back against me and my family. I was so offended and actually deleted all but one of my posts. I am not sure why this person feels that they needed to be so hurtful but they are. I did realize after posting my last post that it does not matter.
Even in a support group setting you will find vain people who are here to get noticed and to say this is what I did. I hope I never become a person like this person it. I know I cannot have everyone as a friend, but that is what I want. I know that I cannot help everyone, but that is what I want. As much as this person hurt me this week, I realized one thing in this and that is I still have to love her through it. I still have to pray for her and I still have to welcome her even if I do not want to. That is what a support person does. I will rise above and be the one who steps out and reaches out as that is what I want.
I call myself a Christian. I uphold that and firmly believe in my being one. I do not always walk the walk as I should or talk the talk. My emotions get the best of me until God knocks me on the head and says WOE! Stop, think and pray. I will pray for this person every day that her journey here is one that will bring her closer to herself and her success.
I am only accountable for me and my behavior. I am accountable to those I support and those who are in my shadow. I want to love myself through this and other too.
It really is such a true statement.. one breath, one step and one day at a time together we will be better.
Getting started
Nov 09, 2008
Welome to our site. I am excited and anxiously waiting approvals from OH to launch the birth of the Michigan Downriver WLS Support Group. What an exciting venture. One filled with hope, faith, grace and peace. I hope to have our first meeting before Christmas. Yea.. I will keep all posted as the approvals go through.
One Day, One Breath, One Step at a time we will conquer and be successful. Together we will be better.
One Day, One Breath, One Step at a time we will conquer and be successful. Together we will be better.
Weight Loss Expo
Nov 08, 2008
So, I wish that I had been using this blog and tool all along. I do use a daily journal, but this is way cool.
I went to the Weight Loss Expo today in Novi, Michigan. It was ok, not what I expected. There were quite a few vendors that I did not think belonged in a Weight Loss Expo.
I had a wonderful pleasure of meeting some wonderful people. Laura Preston was one. She had GB 3 years ago and looks absolutely amazing. She is the National Spokesperson and Sales Director for Focus 28. If you have not tried their product you really need to.
The other amazing people were Joanna from OH and Bo McCoy who lost an amazing 330 pounds and looks absolutely amazing. I got a free makeover and my eyebrows done.. lol. It was too much fun.
I was feeling a bit discouraged about my journey thus far and boy did I get an uplift today and clarification of what I really want to do and how I want to be a voice for WLS. I want to share my story, my life and my long road to where I am and where I have been.
I went to the Weight Loss Expo today in Novi, Michigan. It was ok, not what I expected. There were quite a few vendors that I did not think belonged in a Weight Loss Expo.
I had a wonderful pleasure of meeting some wonderful people. Laura Preston was one. She had GB 3 years ago and looks absolutely amazing. She is the National Spokesperson and Sales Director for Focus 28. If you have not tried their product you really need to.
The other amazing people were Joanna from OH and Bo McCoy who lost an amazing 330 pounds and looks absolutely amazing. I got a free makeover and my eyebrows done.. lol. It was too much fun.
I was feeling a bit discouraged about my journey thus far and boy did I get an uplift today and clarification of what I really want to do and how I want to be a voice for WLS. I want to share my story, my life and my long road to where I am and where I have been.
