Sombrero_Sue
Ok I am attempting to move into the 21st century and attempting a blog. LOL...My name is Susan, I am a 46 yr old single mom with a wonderful 10 yr old son, Alexander. I work for a large medical equipment company and have been with them overall 16 yrs I broke it into 2 parts...I worked for them for 10 yrs moved toTennessee with my SO to persue a dream of owning my own business. I returned to PA a short time later and returned to work for the same company -just had a little break in the middle there. I am a historical hatmaker by trade and do Civil War, 1880 cowboys, some Rev War mens hats in beaver fur.
I began my research 4 yrs ago when I came upon this board. I read and read and learned whatever I could. At the time lap band was not available around here and I just could not convince myself that bypass was the way to go. I am partial to my parts. I have a strange sense of humor and could picture the 3 stooges standing over my in white coats, stroking gotees and shaking their heads saying, "if she only had that 6 inches of her colon we could have saved her." LOL strange I know yet, I guess I couldn't justify to myself that I needed that procedure. Several co workers has bypass and were so pleased. I watched the saleswoman go from a 6' maybe 320 lb beauty to a 6' super model of maybe 130 lbs. My cohort Susan in my office chose lapband and is about a month ahead of me. She is doing wonderfully.
I hate to admit it but I was ashamed to tell my parents I was looking into this surgery. I thought it would provoke an attitude of that is the easy way out, just stop eating etc....turns out parents surprise the heck out of you. Hmmmm who knew?
Things progressed along rather quickly, and I was scheduled before I knew it. I had anticipated being out for 2 weeks but fate would have another idea. I had an emergency splenectomy while being banded. I spent 4 nights in ICU and have been home since then. I am going back to work 1/28/08. Giggles....just how does one land a sugar daddy? haha I liked being home. I liked being able to go to school for plays and the like with my son. I liked being home when he gets home instead of getting home at 6pm. sigh....
The thing that spurred me along was this past July I was at cub scout camp with my son. I have arthritis in both knees soooo badly thatI was barely able to walk to keep up. I felt like I was holding him back. Then brilliant idea...all the adults had to take the swim test...no biggie I can swim like a fish....passed the test with flying colors but the next day, I jumped into the lake, unbeknownst to me the darn water was only about 4' deep and I thought it was 8' so I jumped with gusto, hit the bottom like a lead sinker with one knee bent, ripped open the knee, burst a vein and wrenched the other leg by hyper extending it. OY.....sooo long story short, I was out of comission the rest of camp and basically up until 2 weeks before surgery. My blood sugar was 365 when I got home from camp. I have never been over 150. I knew then I needed to do something. I told the doctor, I could live with being fat, I have always been fat, my boyfriends liked me fat, but I can't do needles...no no no.....scared to death. So that was the straw that threw me over the edge of lurking on the boards to moving my ass. I am sooo glad I did.....now if the weightwould start to move a little.....I am seeing inches just not lbs lost. sigh.....you know the world judges you on lbs lost .....and I guess I judge myself as well.
