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Well, my life has been a physical and emotional rollercoaster so far this year.
I am doing better with the pancreatitis, but I am still having problems keeping my weight where the Dr wants me to keep it. He doesnt want me under 130 and today I am down to 128.5
Im eating but I know Im not eating enough. Depression is setting in and I am feeling like there is no way out.

Well, it's been a sucky year for me so far. I've lost my husband of 8 years and I am struggling financially. I have also been struggling with pancreatitis since Feb.  I can't eat because when I do, I have lots of pain and my blood levels are off the charts. I have been on IV nutrition since Feb 9th.  They have tried to wean me off the IV's but everytime they do, I get sick again.  I have an appointment to see a gastro specialist in a couple of weeks.  If they dont find out what's causing it or "fix" me, I am contemplating going to the Mayo Clinic for help.  I am getting really discouraged. If anyone else has had trouble with pancreatitis since their surgery, I would love to chat with them.
Thanks for listening :)
Cindy

PS: My 2 year anniversary came and went and I forgot all about it because I am so sick.

Well, as you can see, Im not very good at updating this blog.  It's been almost a year.  What a year that has been. I have gone way below my goal of 150 and I am now weighing in at 124. I have lost a total of 155lbs.  I feel great except for some bouts of hypoglycemia but I am learning to deal with that. I went from a size 28 to a size 4 in jeans and from a size 3x to a small in shirts. NEVER in my life did I ever expect to see that.  I am so glad that I did this for myself. I feel better physically and I have more self esteem than I ever had before.
The down side to this past year is most recently, My husband of almost 8 years left me.  Not because of the weight loss or anything to do with the weightloss. He had issues of his own and I had the strength to tell him I refuse to live like that. So I came home one night and he was gone.
Dont worry about me though, I am now a strong woman and I will go on.  I have been seriously thinking about a body lift since I have lost all the weight. But that will have to go on the back burner for a while since I am now and 1 income family and I have a son graduating this spring.  Too many expenses and not enough income. 
I hope to post new updated pics soon.
Thank you to everyone who supported me during the past 2 years and especially my angel, Melissa :)
Cindy

Well, I know it's a few days late, but I finally posted my 1 year pics.
I am down 145 lbs and feeling great.
Feel free to leave comments :)
Love ya
Cindy

I made this video to track my weight loss over the last year.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOxPqqOLaWI

Cindy

Well it's been 11 months since my life changing surgery. The only regret I have is not doing it sooner. I have lost 142 lbs and I feel WONDERFUL. My BMI went from 46 to 22.3. I have never been this healthy in my life.  I have gone from wearing a size 26/28 to a size 6 jeans and small/medium tops. 
My family has been very supportive. Right now they are all saying that I have lost too much, but it just seems to keep coming off. I eat pretty much what I want. I have learned to stay away from fried foods, breads and starches and things high in sugar. I have found that these things make me dump.........which is a good thing...........LOL
Thank you to all my friends on here who have supported me thru this incredible journey.

Look at the pic below:

I can't believe I was doing it wrong all these years.

LOL

Well, it's been a long time since I blogged, so I figured it was time. I hit my goal of 150 on December 20th, 2007.  I am currently 10 months post op and now I am way below my original goal of 150. Today I am 137. I am now wearing a size 6 jeans and medium to small tops. It still seems like a dream to me. I have been able to eat small amts of sugar without bothering me, but not too much. I am looking forward to warm weather because I am going to start running. My son runs track and cross country and this is something that we can do together. I am soooooo looking forward to summer. I have actually been looking at swimsuits and looking forward to buying one this year.
My new goal is to firm some of this extra skin up so I dont look so flabby. Thank you too all of you who have cheered me on and helped me get to where I am now :)
I love you all.

Well, the house is quiet so I thought I would take time to blog a bit. A lot has changed in my life in the past month. I started a new job, which is keeping me VERY busy. I havent worked fulltime in over 3 years and now it is kicking my behind. My daughter in law and my 2 grandsons (ages 3 & 14 months) moved in with us. That keeps our house very active and noisy..........lol.
I lost my precious Paris to a car accident. I miss her so much. I love animals and my house was so quiet without her, we went out and bought a new puppy to help with the pain of losing Paris. Her name is Tinkerbell, and I call her Stinkerbell because she is a little stinker. I will post her pic in my photo album.  She is a long haired Chihuahua. The boys love her.
I have also started taking classes to complete my RN training. So needless to say, I have been busy. My weight loss is going good. I am down 120 pounds today. I only have 6 more pounds till I reach my goal of 150. Im sure I will lose more, but if I only get to 150, I will be happy. I am now wearing a size 34 jean and medium tops.  Some days I feel like I have lost too much because I feel weak and have no energy, and some days I feel like a million dollars. I think my body just needs to catch up with the weight loss.  I go for my next Dr's appt on Monday so we will see what he says when I go. The last time I saw him was July and I had lost 66 pounds then. I have lost 54 lbs since then. My hair is growing again and I actually NEED a haircut. I will try to post some new pics soon I promise :)
I love you all
Take care and God Bless
~Cindy~

I dont know what to do. My dog, Paris got hit by a car in front of my house on Thursday and she died from her injuries. I have not been able to eat or sleep. I cannot get the images out of my head! I am crying all the time
The person that hit her didnt even stop. They just kept right on going. I am just devastated!
Till we meet in heaven my baby Paris, I will always love you!
Paris Nicole Hamilton
4/4/2006 to 10/25/2007