4 months out

Feb 26, 2010

I just did my 3 month check up ... I am 64 lbs lost... I feel beautiful and happy.  I can eat again so I am having to watch what i eat .. however I eat so little.. i  am not interested in food.  it has gotten easier to get my protein in though.  i have found some things i like.. like click and luna bars.. i am in love with tuna and pickles.  I am a size 12 and it is falling off me.. so funny .. weight loss is still so slow.. some weeks none and others lots.. I have just relaxed and i know it will all fall off..i learned i was anemic this week so i do hate that i have to take more medicine but i am hoping for more energy..i have relized that i am not as pissed off as i was fatter.. i laugh a little more.. i do things i enjoy a little more.  food is no longer my best friend.  i love my rny and all the pain and puking was worth it... if my weight stopped right here i am a better happier person because i chose to have this surgery... i still get scared when something hurts or goes down the wrong way.  i hope time will make that go away.  I love the way i look now and i think i am learning to love who i am . or atleast at peace now...i feel sexy and alive.. things i havent felt in years.  when i go shopping now i dont get strange looks..now i hear things like tiny and small sizes.. i can always find stuff and it no longer is plus size.. men pay attention to me every where and girls are nice to me.. people dont turn and look away or give me looks of yuck..  everyone tells me i look great.. i am normal for the first time in a long time.. Happy Dance

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