shellys
well this has been a very long and exhausting journey...so i've decided to paste from my old obesity help profile.
I am 22, a new mom and i'm way too young to stay this big. I am tired of the battle of dieting, diet pills, etc. I have come to the conclusion that WLS is the only hope for me after all.....
1/8/2003
I have finished my final step to get started in the whole insurance aproval process. I saw my primary care physician and he wrote me an awesome letter for the insurance people to review,I saw the dietitian which that went smoothly as well. I also saw the Psychiatrist. I am anxious to see what the insurance company has to say. I am making sure that I do not let myself down by 'expecting' to be denied the first time around.
2/2/2004
Well, As I wrote above, I set my self up to be denied the first time, but I guess that I didn't set myself up good enough. Even though deep down I knew that I would be denied the first time, I still felt devistated to learn that I was denied. It felt like the insurance company 'rejected' me. That was painful, epecially after being rejected my whole life for being overweight. I have accepted that I am morbidly obese, but I just can't believe that the insurance company doesn't want to help me live longer so that I can watch my baby girl grow up. I feel that If I do not have this surgery, I'm on my way to die...
There has to be help somewhere out there.
I am now scheduled to have a follow up with my primary care physician and will ask him to re-write my letter. I also have to send the insurance company results of my physical....Who knew you would have to go through so much!
5/20/2004
Man, it has been such a long time since I have written here. I have been severely depressed. As stated above, I saw my primary care physician and had him re-write my letter of recommendation. I turned this back into the insurance company, with the 6 months of dieting, but I ended up getting denied AGAIN!!!!! It has been 6 years since my last supervised diet and they want it to be 5 years ago or before. So I'm doing what I have to do...I'm having to go through the supervised dieting again...for a whole six months. I started in March, will be done in September. That is fine with me because my birthday is in September, it is just sooo hard to wait until September to start a new me!
5/27/2004
MAJOR SETBACK!!!
My local bariatric center is shutting down. I had to go this morning to pick up my file because they are no longer doing bariatric surgeries because the insurance companies aren't paying up!!! I will now be forced to go on a mission to search for a new doctor. Good luck, me!
8/16/2004
Well, I haven't written here lately because I have been terribly upset and depressed regarding my status of my journey for weight loss surgery.
The rumor around work is that they have made it to where our job has an exclusion stating that they will no longer cover the weight loss surgery of any kind, no matter how necessary it is. They can't come up with the proof of this, so I believe that they are only telling us this to not apply for it until they will get a chance to change the writting for good coming october, which is when they do all the provisions and everything. I am still going through the supervised dieting for the insurance, but i will not be done with that until September the 15th. I just hope that when I get all the paperwork completed on that day and get it all turned in that I will be able to get a response by October, but how likely is that?
I don't know...some times i just feel like giving up, but then I always return to this site and look at the before and after pics and get inspired again. Me and a group of the girls at work have decided to look into purchasing health insurance through a company, but it is really expensive, and who knows....
WHAT IS A GIRL TO DO? ANYONE OUT THERE THAT WOULD LIKE TO ASSIST ME IN ANYWAY, LET ME KNOW!!!!!
October 14, 2004
Well, of course my employer came out with all the info in writing that does state that they no longer cover the weight loss surgery, exactly two weeks before my six weeks of dieting are up. Wow, so I guess this will be the ending of my jouney to weight loss surgery. There is no way in hell that I will be able to pay for the surgery out of pocket. This is horrible, I do not understand why insurance companies would rather pay for blood pressure pills, diabetic medications and treatment, and all of the other costs that are associated with obesity...than to pay for the damn surgery and get it over with. It seems like this country would like to help those that are willing to accept the help!!!!!! I just don't understand. But thanks so much for all of the support that you all have given me. There has to be a better ending to this story somewhere down the road, if so..I will be sure to update.
July 17, 2005
Hello anyone who reads this.
I don't have anything new, just really forgot about obesity help.com and remembered it today, so i thought i would write so that i could vent some frustrations. I hear about how popular the weight loss surgery is and see how great people are doing that have had it, and i am purely jealous! I am so happy for them and so glad that they are all blessed with this life saving tool. I know that there is a reason that I haven't been so 'lucky' but I wish I knew what that reason is. I have been doing nothing but gaining more and more weight(and i refuse to update my bmi on this website...it is bad enough as it is...), slipping deeper and deeper into depression. I do a great job with hiding it, though!
My clothes are so tight and where I live, I cannot find any clothes to fit me so I have decided to at least try and lose a little bit of weight so that my clothes can fit. I went to Walgreens with my daughter last week and saw that the Leptopril was on sale for 34.99 and I thought, what the heck! I might as well try it. The first day that I took it, it worked great. I was up and cleaning my house til 2am. Now it works, I guess but I stay so tired because once I come down off of it, I crash hard!
I am eating ridiculously. I had three scrambled eggs the other day for lunch! I just know that this isn't going to give me as good results as I would like. Aren't there any doctors out there that can just donate one surgery? There's gotta be!
I went grocery shopping last night and ran into these two little boys (they looked to be about 10 years old) and they pointed at me and said 'look at that fat bitch'. then they made another little comment. That hasn't happened to me in a while, but of course, now i do not want to go out to eat, or go do anything in public because i am just a disgrace...
*ugh*
July 27, 2005
Well, I have been taking the leptopril and I have lost 20 lbs in three weeks. I was just about to give up, but when I weighed myself and saw that I was really loosing, then that just encourages me to do more. Hey, I'm not going to get the surgery and so I am going to have to fight tooth and nail to get this freaking weight off myself....I know it isn't going to stay off but I am changing my habits. I have been riding my exercise bike for 20 min a day and I have a slimfast for breakfast and then for lunch and dinner i have a Lean Cuisine. Who knows, i might lose 50 lbs, that would help a lot!
August 3, 2005
-28 lbs!
September 7, 2005
-44 lbs!
October 18, 2005
-54 lbs!!!!
I was having a 'free day' on my days off and eating whatever, but still trying to watch it..but then that ended up resulting in me gaining anywhere from 2 1/2 to 3 pounds over the weekend and then i would have to spend all week to get that off then over and over..so now on my 'free days' i am sticking to my diet but then if my husband and daughter have left overs, then i will nibble on theirs. This is a tough journey, i am only praying that I can continue to stick with it...taking it day by day, meal by meal!!!
December 13, 2005
-60 lbs
The weight loss is slowing down but I have been having a hard time saying 'no' to high fat food whenever friends visit and we end up having a dinner date. I can gain like 2 pounds on the weekend and like above, have to spend the week to get it off. I am having a hard time also with it being close to the holidays and everyone at work bring food! everything from cookies to brownies to dips and casseroles...lots and lots of junk! I am hoping that I can still loose a few pounds this month..even if it is just two more I will be happy.
October 17, 2007..
wow.........i can't believe i came back on here! i thought i never would!! big big big news. i switched insurance and i inquired again about this and i was finally approved! my surgery is scheduled for december 3rd!
