Working toward my 5 yr plan

Nov 22, 2012

I just celebrated my 4 year anniversary of my surgery. I swore going into it that the weightloss would only be one aspect of my life changes. I was determined within 5 years I would find true happiness. This past year I has been difficult and trying to say the least. In my quest to find myself and learn what happiness means, I have found myself in one of the lowest places I have ever been. At my peak I had lost 129 lbs. That was my goal....to be half the person I was. I did it against everyone's wishes as they thought I had gone too far. I admit they were right. I gained back 6 lbs and stayed there for a long time. Unfortunately, I started a new job with a boss who was very demeaning and demoralizing, yet felt it appropriate to bring me to tears then let me know how much he "desired" me. For 10 mths I was on the edge all the time and I went back to my old ways and my emotional eating. I have gained back 20 more pounds. I am still a success as far as my doctor is concerned but I feel myself losing control yet again. I start my new job on Monday. My last day at the old job was last Thursday and today 1 week later I have already lost 3 lbs. I know I have a long way to go, but Im focused on getting back on track and not allowing anyone else to have such control over me ever again. So here is to putting all the bad behind me and moving into the new year with promise and hope and preferrable much trimmer by swimsuit season 

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