barbccrn
Do I fight harder or wave the white flag????
Feb 12, 2011
I haven't lost any weight in close to 1 year(matter of fact gained maybe 10-12 lbs). OK...I'm no longer the ideal patient...I am a rebel some days...and I do pay for it by dumping and feeling like crap! So do I accept that I'm totally done losing(never made it to goal...still about 25 lbs more to go) or do I just accept this is as good as it gets??????I never have thought of myself as a quitter...but I think this trying to lose the last of the weight is a LOT bigger and stronger than me. That doesn't mean I'm giving up willingly but there always seems to be temptations out there. The temptations are so much larger and stronger than the healthy;better choices.
Yep...I do give in...and I love it for about 30 seconds and really was it worth it for 30 seconds of gratification??? HELL NO!!!!! Then why does my brain continue to taunt me and I make those wrong; crappy choices.
I've said it before and I'll repeat it again. I want that focus and felling back when I was a RNY newbie. Why do we have to get comfortable and mess with success???? Just saying...we ALL have addictive personalities...if we didn't we wouldn't have needed WLS to begin with.
I think I need to just take a deep breath; and live this RNY day to day...maybe even hour to hour is more realistic. I don't need to make the daily 3pm trip to the vending machine for pretzels every day...a CLICK shake or string cheese and bottle of flavored water will hit the spot as well. I need to be mentally stronger and I will win the war with my scale...eventually.
Losing was easy...maintenance is a BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 Comment
About Me
Las Vegas, NV
Location
26.6
BMI
Surgery
12/06/2007
Surgery Date
Oct 14, 2007
Member Since
