laurie R.
always come back
Apr 08, 2011
So I hate to say it but I have gained 13 lbs. oh I'm so disappointed with my self.
I can feel the weight gain. uhhhhggg.
I hate it, what a ugly cycle of bad choices. I joined a back on track group on here. I think i got so wrapped up in the new me the old me was sneaking out. DANG IT!!!!!!
okay so I need to do the fallowing
Make and change choices.
journal food,emotion,vits, whats going on.
continue to exercise every day
get the protein, water, calorie log going
carry a bottle of water allover the place
no fluid at food time 30 minute waiting after.
3 hours between meals and 2 for snacks.
STOP GRAZING AND PLAN A DAYS FOOD.
did i say stop grazing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will give my self a big hand because i joined the YMCA and have 4 days of exercise classes i go to.
hormones have been on a crazy track and not helping
its all choice i get it, now I got to do it for me again.
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I can feel the weight gain. uhhhhggg. I hate it, what a ugly cycle of bad choices. I joined a back on track group on here. I think i got so wrapped up in the new me the old me was sneaking out. DANG IT!!!!!! okay so I need to do the fallowing
Make and change choices.
journal food,emotion,vits, whats going on.
continue to exercise every day
get the protein, water, calorie log going
carry a bottle of water allover the place
no fluid at food time 30 minute waiting after.
3 hours between meals and 2 for snacks.
STOP GRAZING AND PLAN A DAYS FOOD.
did i say stop grazing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will give my self a big hand because i joined the YMCA and have 4 days of exercise classes i go to.
hormones have been on a crazy track and not helping
its all choice i get it, now I got to do it for me again.
kids r funny
Aug 30, 2010
HI, I thought i might share a funny story.
My 6 year old son and I were watching TV in my bedroom. Being a kid, he was rolling all over the place and on my legs. This went on for while. Then in a moment of frustration he looks at me and states. "Mom stop losing weight, ur legs are all bony and hurt me when I roll on them."
I had to laugh and I informed him, I would take his request in to consideration. Hee hee.
That is good stuff.
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My 6 year old son and I were watching TV in my bedroom. Being a kid, he was rolling all over the place and on my legs. This went on for while. Then in a moment of frustration he looks at me and states. "Mom stop losing weight, ur legs are all bony and hurt me when I roll on them."
I had to laugh and I informed him, I would take his request in to consideration. Hee hee.
That is good stuff.
3 month stall over!!!!
Aug 27, 2010
WOO HOO
. kid's I'm FREE OF THE 3MONTH STALL. WAS I FREAKING? YES. HOLY COW WAS I FREAKING.
THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN ,BAM!!!. THE SCALES STARTED TO MOVE LIKE BEFORE.
SOME UPDATED .
GUESS WHO HAD HAD SOME, WHAT? "DATES"
AND DIGGING IT . lots OF ISSUES RECONCILING HUBBY'S DEATH AND DATING. IT IS ALL A PROCESS. I KNOW.
2.8 LBS TO 100 LBS. i'M GOING TO DO IT BEFORE MY BITHDAY IN SEPTEMBER.
. iTS MY (?#) 27 TH BIRTHDAY AGAIN,YOU KNOW. HAA HAA. WELL THATS IT FOR NOW, HOPE U ALL ARE DOING WELL. HAVE A GREAT DAY.
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. kid's I'm FREE OF THE 3MONTH STALL. WAS I FREAKING? YES. HOLY COW WAS I FREAKING. THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN ,BAM!!!. THE SCALES STARTED TO MOVE LIKE BEFORE.
SOME UPDATED .
GUESS WHO HAD HAD SOME, WHAT? "DATES"
AND DIGGING IT . lots OF ISSUES RECONCILING HUBBY'S DEATH AND DATING. IT IS ALL A PROCESS. I KNOW. 2.8 LBS TO 100 LBS. i'M GOING TO DO IT BEFORE MY BITHDAY IN SEPTEMBER.
. iTS MY (?#) 27 TH BIRTHDAY AGAIN,YOU KNOW. HAA HAA. WELL THATS IT FOR NOW, HOPE U ALL ARE DOING WELL. HAVE A GREAT DAY.fun stuff
Mar 29, 2010
Well a few thing that are worth mentioning from my life.
I sled down Cotton Wood Creek hills on a sled with both 5 year olds on one sled, all of us all together. Never would have done this before.
Next, I did the WII game "just dance" with the little kids and kept up and did many dances in a row.Hee hee.
What fun it is to live like your a kid and not a big fat lady. I get noticed more and more each day.
For some reason, The world can't really see fat persons.
Now, I have taken up Tanning at a salon. I love to tan.
I was prompted to make a statement to my little ones.I was told the sadist thing from my Son. He said he wanted to have light skin like me and the other two kids.
This broke my heart, I chose them, because I could never make them, they are perfect.
I told him when he asked why I go tanning, it Is, so I can look just like (him) them. They were shocked I said that. Now they are just fine with us wanting to look like them and vice verse...for now...u never know when another issue will come. But for now we are all happy with the wrapping paper God used to cover us in.
I have been thinking about extra skin some. I have some Big concerns about my thighs and tummy. They are really not looking like they should ever see the light of day. I have been very busy with Church stuff and some volunteering. I have the endurance to meet these desire to serve and a body that will support the causes I ask it to. I am very thankful for the choice I made to save me and my family. Take care.
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I sled down Cotton Wood Creek hills on a sled with both 5 year olds on one sled, all of us all together. Never would have done this before.
Next, I did the WII game "just dance" with the little kids and kept up and did many dances in a row.Hee hee.
What fun it is to live like your a kid and not a big fat lady. I get noticed more and more each day.
For some reason, The world can't really see fat persons.
Now, I have taken up Tanning at a salon. I love to tan.
I was prompted to make a statement to my little ones.I was told the sadist thing from my Son. He said he wanted to have light skin like me and the other two kids.
This broke my heart, I chose them, because I could never make them, they are perfect.
I told him when he asked why I go tanning, it Is, so I can look just like (him) them. They were shocked I said that. Now they are just fine with us wanting to look like them and vice verse...for now...u never know when another issue will come. But for now we are all happy with the wrapping paper God used to cover us in.
I have been thinking about extra skin some. I have some Big concerns about my thighs and tummy. They are really not looking like they should ever see the light of day. I have been very busy with Church stuff and some volunteering. I have the endurance to meet these desire to serve and a body that will support the causes I ask it to. I am very thankful for the choice I made to save me and my family. Take care.
I'm in my 30's again.
Feb 12, 2010
I have gone in to my 30's again. No, not age, weight.
I now weigh the same as when I was 9 month pregnant with my 2 child, 11 years ago and when I got married 9 years ago (see wedding pictures ). I think I will find my wedding dress and try it on. If it fits, there will be some picture to share. ohh yes there will. Stay tuned kids.
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. No, not age, weight.I now weigh the same as when I was 9 month pregnant with my 2 child, 11 years ago and when I got married 9 years ago (see wedding pictures ). I think I will find my wedding dress and try it on. If it fits, there will be some picture to share. ohh yes there will. Stay tuned kids.
3 months ( wow)
Feb 10, 2010
Hi, Today is my 3 month date. . I have dropped a few LBS. in that time. haa haa. I have not died. If your reading this you can say the same.
So, hear are some of my thought of this time. I can have moved down 4 sizes, I kick my old shoes at people (too big). Lost a lot of hair, I'm almost bald on the top of my head for real (that sucks a lot), I have done the hair loss before and know it will grow back. 
. Getting rid of cloths by the loads. The ARC is my new best friend. Had my Nails Done with oldest Daughter, Loads of fun to be with her. 
I have to get my butt to some meetings, My goal is to start this month. I found out there are meeting on the north end now. woohoo. I have no more excuses.(dang it). I still have lots of issues with constipation and getting all to move in an orderly fashion. ( no smiley face needed). I feel a little more sassy than usual lately. My periods have stopped again and that and the hair is odd and being cold. I'm looking into the calcium and iron and zinc areas. I take BA iron and vits. I have the calcium tablets, But my NUT said if your getting calcium from dairy 3 times a day that will do. I did orders some BA calcium crystals also. I may go to the wig store and pick put some new hair I will never be able to grow in my life time. that would be fun. 
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The more I loss the more I would love my hubby to see me. Dang it. Maybe from heaven he has a window to see us.
. I hope so.
Any way these are my thoughts on this day. I love the snow and sunshine, I love Colorado weather. Take care, write if inspired and have a great day
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. I have dropped a few LBS. in that time. haa haa. I have not died. If your reading this you can say the same.So, hear are some of my thought of this time. I can have moved down 4 sizes, I kick my old shoes at people (too big). Lost a lot of hair, I'm almost bald on the top of my head for real (that sucks a lot), I have done the hair loss before and know it will grow back. . Getting rid of cloths by the loads. The ARC is my new best friend. Had my Nails Done with oldest Daughter, Loads of fun to be with her. I have to get my butt to some meetings, My goal is to start this month. I found out there are meeting on the north end now. woohoo. I have no more excuses.(dang it). I still have lots of issues with constipation and getting all to move in an orderly fashion. ( no smiley face needed). I feel a little more sassy than usual lately. My periods have stopped again and that and the hair is odd and being cold. I'm looking into the calcium and iron and zinc areas. I take BA iron and vits. I have the calcium tablets, But my NUT said if your getting calcium from dairy 3 times a day that will do. I did orders some BA calcium crystals also. I may go to the wig store and pick put some new hair I will never be able to grow in my life time. that would be fun. . The more I loss the more I would love my hubby to see me. Dang it. Maybe from heaven he has a window to see us.
. I hope so. Any way these are my thoughts on this day. I love the snow and sunshine, I love Colorado weather. Take care, write if inspired and have a great day
B12 shot
Jan 20, 2010
Good evening, Today I will speak of b12 shots.
OH I love b12 shots. So I decided with my surgeon to give my self b12 shots. I thougth this would be a great idea
. So the doc called in the b12 shot to the pharmacy.The wonderful gals at the pharmacy, whom I adore, got the syringes all ready and showed me how to suck the juice in to the syringe. I came home all ready to give my self a shot. I CAN DO THIS, AND!!!!!!! I chickened out. I just couldn't jam that needle in to my flesh. cause things hanging out of my body freaks me out. 
OH WHATA SISSY I AM. 
. haa haa I have to laugh. Sooooo the OLDEST DAUGHTER, who I gave birth to, with no drugs, weighing in at 10 + lbs, 2 weeks over due (by the way). She stepped right up to stab mom in the arm. That's my deviant behavior specialist. I'm so glad my money goes to her college support, So she now feels comfortable to stab me. woo hoo. Okay, am thankful she will step in. What a good kid she is.
. Any way, any one else taken this 12 road? get it? haahaa
thrift store find
Jan 12, 2010
Good morning kids
. Guess what I found?
I went to the arc thrift store to get some cheap clothes. While shopping for smaller clothes, I also found a heating blanket for my bed. woo hoo. I'm freezing to death.I think I said this before now.
I also must give the clothing idea to my friend in Alabama. She said don't spend good money on clothes you will not keep. she is a keeper for sure.
Any hoo, back to the story. My 5 year olds found mom, a tread mill and a good one. it was 80.00$ I jumped up and down, at the kids great find. It is a Health Rider. it is fantastic and in great shape. every one including the poor pug dog has been on it. The kids made the pug ride it. poor lazy dog.
If we go again I will keep an eye out for other to share.
The tread part fold up and is great for the house. We got it in the house, but it is in the living room. My daughter is not willing to try to get it to the family room, down stairs. I can't imagine why.
Hew hee.
I guess I will try to get the brothers to move it. Wish me luck on them moving it.
. 
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. Guess what I found? I went to the arc thrift store to get some cheap clothes. While shopping for smaller clothes, I also found a heating blanket for my bed. woo hoo. I'm freezing to death.I think I said this before now.
I also must give the clothing idea to my friend in Alabama. She said don't spend good money on clothes you will not keep. she is a keeper for sure.
Any hoo, back to the story. My 5 year olds found mom, a tread mill and a good one. it was 80.00$ I jumped up and down, at the kids great find. It is a Health Rider. it is fantastic and in great shape. every one including the poor pug dog has been on it. The kids made the pug ride it. poor lazy dog.
If we go again I will keep an eye out for other to share.
The tread part fold up and is great for the house. We got it in the house, but it is in the living room. My daughter is not willing to try to get it to the family room, down stairs. I can't imagine why.
Hew hee. I guess I will try to get the brothers to move it. Wish me luck on them moving it.
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2 months out
Jan 10, 2010
I made it to two months out of surgery. I didn't die, I have lost weight, I feel good.I can take a bath and roll over in the tub and get oil on all of me. I can fill the tub with more water than with me.
.I have gotten rid of old cloths that are to big. I am eating healthy(most all the time). I can really see my self succeeding at this. I am proud of all the hard work I have done. I have defied the odd beat death
, I have kept the haters and ignorant people and beliefs at bay. 
. I have surprised my self at times, such as I had no clue I could really loss the weight
. I truly am thankful, I found a community that is supportive and all really" get it". 
. I hope to get some Pictures up soon. I have to get the older child to snap a picture of mom. She love that.. Any who, I have to say. I find this time of life full of change . My hubby made the gone year mark this week. That is wild to think it has been a year. I have been through the crap mill a few times this year and I have a true desire to make it my year. 
. The best of all the years are still to come. I still will need to get a frow. haa haa.
