10 weeks yesterday - 194

Feb 22, 2011

Really?!?!  I give up!!  My fat refuses to leave my body!!  I give up!!  Talk about buyers remorse....what a lot of pain to go through to loose......30lbs.  I'm tired of being told the weight will come off....really?!  When is it going to come off?  1.5 pounds a week....I'm losing at the same rate I lost on my own BEFORE surgery the last time I got really serious about dropping weight.  I"m so aggrivated....this whole process is frustrating.

I don't want to make my next appointment with my surgeon's office becasue the last time I weighed in....which was 3 wks post op, I was 205.....so 9 pounds.....7 weeks later.....he was "hoping" for 40.....

I'm in a size 16....at least that is what the tag in these pants say.....though...they are also 5 years old....so are they really a 16, or are they just stretched out because I've had them for so long?!?  I refuse to buy any new clothes....though even though I'm down 30lbs, I don't need too.....all of my "fat" clothes...even though I'm still fat....still fit me - funny how that works....I don't even need a belt!!  Told myself I would buy a new outfit when I reached 180.....so....14lbs to go.....14 weeks to go......blah......

Pity Party over.

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